Change

I will let go... And change myself.... What i need to improve? I want to sleep early and do seriously in every single job... Be healthy... Keep fit! Wow! Be a better anton! Do dont be jealous and 妒嫉。what i have i need to thank God... Everything is from God... I am rich or poor, handsome or ugly, smart or weak, healhty or sick is all thanks God... :) God will give me a good way for my future and my everything... :)

爱情

爱情是什么？爱一个人只是说说？说我爱你？陈诺？或保护？说我爱你只是暂时罢了，因为当我们看到对方的有点。
爱情时佛会永久吗？我觉的爱情不知事两人的是情。是三角的，男友，女友和上帝。这才会永久的。
我想了很久，我真的要放下。我不能给撒旦利用我让我想以前的回忆！上帝请您进入我的生命教导我。
王德秀。

我的心真的很痛

我发现他真的爱另一个人了。她都骗我，他的他来了。我看到很心痛！为设么哪？难道我还爱他？或妒嫉？或不甘愿哪？我真的很傻。都很久了，他也应该有喜欢的人了吧。我是还是想不通为设么会这样对我呢？难道我对你不好？或你没爱过我？或对我没感觉？真的这次我伤到很痛。算了吧德秀女人要的是安全感和爱他多的。女人不会而你去放弃别的人。我还是去新的生活吧。会过得比较好和快乐，不要傻傻的真爱一个人。别浪非金和真情在女人身上！
我还是不爽如他真的比我跟好么？他也不是合您一样宗教！或他比我有钱？
Haiz... I feel that really fool by her... I also dont know what happen right now? Is it nw she repect him and not sms to me when he with her? Then last time when u with me u keep sms with him! I feel that u really change and i do not know you.... And from here i can say that you really play me? Use me? Am i said correct or wrong ne? Haiz..... I just feel like i am a foolish man in the world... Haiz.... Really want know about this only i can over this relation!
Can i have choice to forget the hurt? I am really hurt... I am seriously,... I wan feeling that i want to die.... No mood to sleep, no mood to wake up.... All like no one in the world... Who can revive me? Who can bring me to the happiness world? I hope that i do not have my pass relationship! I am really get hurt very deeply!!! What should i do?? Who can tell me?

Antonwinoto!

Love

I open the facebook and i saw one relationship get from her boyfriend a buck of rose.. she wrote: 

1. 这真是让我又气又觉得窝心感动的礼物~
   干嘛又浪费钱啊︶︿︶
   别人有不代表我一定也要有嘛~真是猪头一个︶︿︶
   好啦，知道你疼我，爱你啦(^_^)

   This really makes me feel nice gift ~ why waste money, ︶ ^ ︶ others does not mean I have to have a ︶ ^ ︶ ~ pig well, know that you love me, loving you (^ _ ^)

   
   

   this girl really have his heart and the love... she can care about his money... its really good girlfriend... ^^ i love this... ^^ hope they can happy forever...

   bcs i feel they both can 为了对方着想。

Feel lonely and like alone...

After i broke up with her i feel sad for a few months i keep saying to myself to let me busy with work but i cant forget what i have with her.... This is really meaning full and hardly to forget.... Can say this is my first love to me... All that i have done is with her... Cook for me care me, help me in studies... And a lot more... I am quite missing that time so,etimes i feel nothing to do i wanted to find someone to accompany me... Last time heah i have a full time bcs i had her... Now no more... Now she always keep refuse to meet with me... Maybe she dont wan to get hurt by me gua? Or maybe she try to hide me? Or she want to try get love with her bf ? Haiz.... She real a good girl but she just a bit think too much.... Haiz.... Pass its pass... Really cant get back to the pass... Now i might to think is it he last time got love her so dont dare to say out... After she broke up with me, he have her... Haiz.... I also dont know... Is it you very easy to give up on our 36 months and 9days? If yes then i am really really sad... And i think i am not importand to you... Just for 5 months he can with you... Which mean his love to you for 5 months can change with our relationship frm sadness to happiness 36months and 9 days just replace him? Haiz.... Or she really not love me?? Haiz..... :'( i am really dont believe in love to women... Its too scary for me to think about this... Nw i want to get her... I want to take her frm him... But she likes obey him or scare to hurt him... Just think you love who more? Do not lost your chances to be with your lover back! Haiz.... Maybe he always sms to you and always whasapp you until get closer to you and become likes.... Haiz.... Just this can create your love to him.... Haiz.... I also feel very sad... Yes i am not a handsome man and smart man but i am the only one in the world and i know whats is love! Yeah i got betray you one times... But i am honestly to let you know it... And you accept me and forgive me... I am really more love you bcs of this i promise myself to let you happy.... But at the end gone.... Its really sad for me.... Its hurt.... You cant wait me or chase me back.... Haiz.... 世界上有三种爱。第一是无缘有份，第二有缘有份，第三无缘无份。应该我们是第几个哪'？
我真的很寂寞。难道我要去认识别的人吗？我不敢去认识女人了。
王德秀上。

Time

Time will pass fast... Now my heart is just fill of money! Find money! Got money all its mine! Can do what ever i want! I can buy big house big car many girls! And so on! Wow!!! Now i do not want dream on only just mission to aim and reach that lvl lets bring out to the person who look down with me and i will let them look down back on u! Hahaha!!!!!
Feel happy! :) keep it on anton!

Friday

Fridayits Friday!! Hehehe... Today come back for work.. Still not feeling well but need force myself to work... Early in the morning go to office... Feel tired and wan sleep... But i need to do my job well... Slow doesnt matter do not do wrong can de... I feel i am different with last time... TodAy came to work i do sirim with my staff i keep quite and do my job... Until they talk i reply only.... I feel i no topic to talk until got related to work only i go talk v them....
I feel it is i am not value to you? I am really dont knw what i am doing now.... I feel love isomeone very hard... Can get person but cant have her heart its useless... Haizzzz.... I feel wan to give up? Or still continue ne? I am really cant be myself... Who can drive me?