24 Nov 2013

Sunday, i had spend almost a day with her.. 24 Nov is my special day and i wont let this day unhappy.. because its a good to me..
Saturday night we and my few friends went to the astro battle.. we watch the dance and the pop.. and she said her friend was join the competition and its amazing.. when we reach he at the stage performed.. hahaha... we enjoy the dance and also know few friends... after we watch we eat at jalan petaling.. after that we going home. after i back home i not sleep until 4 am.. because i rushing make the stars for her.. and i wrote my feeling to her.. make her to be strong and do not get hurt with the relationship.. awhile i make the stars my eyes keep closing.. hahaha... finally i done with it and put 2 dian er for her.. which mean hope she have a good mans to love her and protect her.. i should want make 99 dian er but i cant make it.. because it take 5 mins to make one... so i no time to do this.. sorry about this.. 99 mean forever..
we morning go to church after church we had lunch at paradigm mall at chilli restaurant. hahaha.. i enjoy it and first i think why she not keep look at her phone and smsing wth him leh?? is it they have a problem? argue or already become single?? and i ask her and she said ntg lo... after we had our lunch we walk walk and not longer she feel want go for the motor show.. at PWTC, i willing to go with her again.. i already went there on Saturday.. hahaha... at the end we went to the PWTC.. in side i keep see her, she start pressing her phone.. and i go see her... hahha.. at first not her bf.. i feel... wow... now she have more friends... good... but i saw her phone that her bf name.. i feel sad... hahaha... she keep busying chat and press her phone... haiz.... after that night we having dinner with chee hong so we 3 having dinner and talk a lot.. we have fun and also chat with ch mum... his mum very friendly.. hehhee... we finish eat our dinner we going home.. on the way home we also have talk and i tell her about my feeling .. but i still have some cant tell her... i dont know why... but i just want to say i still love her... yes you have bf and i will protect you when you need it.. ^^ i also dont know why i do this... maybe i love you too much gua... some of my friends and my family member said to me you sot liao la... but i tell them you cant ajudted us like this.. not i kena use or play... is i ask her and she ask me so... so cant be i sot... hahhaa.... okay la... its already pass and we just a friend... i just wish her happy... ^^ i will always curi curi love you from behind...

Antonwinoto

back to write my feeling in this few weeks

4th Nov to 14 Nov i went to China for work with my Mother. We had safety back to Malaysia, Thanks God give us safe and smooth when we at China. I has learn a lot in ten days. i learn how to deal with the person, give them a great and have a basic of personal respect. i also train myself how to cool down my anger. example normally when people shout at me i will though he or she angry at me and so that i shout him or her back. most of them speak very laughs and no manner. because of their daily life and also normal to them. i had learn how to see the product and also see around to other factory. example we have gone thou the fan factory and we ask for the product and we also have to compare with other factory which is same model and different the price and also the value.
In my mind i want to be a small boss, which mean i want to try to take my own things to Malaysia and sell in local.. i had my own saving and i would try to make it more than what i have now. example i have 1k and i make it to 2k and slowly to make more model. first i told my mother my idea but my mother reply me better do not do this. if you want make this Panalux company become bigger and every year will get bonus.. but i replied a bonus just like a few month of the salary.. hahaha... my mind too greedy.. hahahaha!!! i rethink i shouldn't do this. because i do not have a experiences and i cant too greedy and think of myself.. however parent will let their son the best. so i will prove myself to get more marketing in this company..
after few days i back from China i had an idea to create a online shops. which is i sell my company product in the online such as facebook, blogs, and many more.. first my mother like agree with my idea.. but she told me must tell father and team with your brother to get know more a knowledge. At the end i share my idea with all which is my parent, my brother and my da sao. i just said online product he strait said NO! i feel sad and i reply him why? he said NO mean NO! and my brother speak to my father you should explain why you said NO. and my father still not give the reason. and i argue with him.. like this our company cant become bigger and our sales still the same.. second if we selling in the internet our company Panalux might people know it and also give our company advertising space! He just reply me now you are warehouse Leader so just make sure your warehouse keep clean make work normal.. i am sad and feel sad because of this.. haiz....
i feel i am not value in this company and i rethink i also not listen what my boss want me to do.. i always reject and argue with him... hahaha... because some of the reason i not respect him la.. hahaha... secret... ^^

Few days ago i saw her FB and she wrote she feel sad.. i feel what happen to her?? she not happy with her study? stress?? or her relationship have problem? or maybe she miss me?? hahaha this impossible.. because she not love me anymore.. by the way i just hope she happy and always pray to Jesus and Jesus will lead you to the true of the heaven way... HE will give you everything goods to You.. I will always pray for your study and your family and daily life...
I had shock that she sms me .. hahaha... its make me feel happy but i will remind it anton she just your friend... do not thing too much.. hahaha... by the way just hope she will happy... even thou she not mine... she happy i also will happy..

Anton Winoto

love faith

When you really love Someone, you'd do everything for her.
Even if it is what you least enjoy doing, you'd still do it without complaint.
This love faith!

You cant lie to yourdself forever, you will have to face up to your feelings one day.
No one could resist temptations no matter how lofty his idealswere.
Anton winoto

tomorrow

Few more hours i will fly to China.. i feel sad because leave malaysia... i gone to be a muture man... to see the world... need to be more responsible... anton jia you.. i will be the best for my work and my future... i will let my family and company see that my value is high.. ^^ lets the pass to be my lesson, today is janour and tomorrow is the future... this few days busy not update too much... some more i will less to write my blog... i will be the best... hope all my friend happy and healthy... especially her... hope she happy... and enjoy her life... pray more get more... less pray less bless... no pray no bless...

Antonwinoto

back to blogs.

almost a week i do not write my blog... hahaha... maybe i am busy do my things and work... btw last week i went to setia walk with my family and my other church friends and pastor... we enjoy that time because celebrate my Marsha come to Malaysia and my sister and brother in law... we finish eat and i go pay for the bill.. my friend is the owner of the shop... call agape... its a western food and its nice... when i call for the bill.. my friend ask me she is malaysian?? and i reply yes she is malaysian... and then she said your gf pretty... and i replied her that she not my gf and she is my ex... wow... this first time i say like this.... btw its pass let it go... now what we have we need to go through.. as the people said pass is our history and pelajaran, now is our live and the future is our mission....
now a days i still headache about my staff... i treat them as a close friend, when they need help i always help them... now i feel that they step over me... and i want to change about it... i am a leader so i cant agree what they want me to do... which mean i call them do they must do it.... if not i will scold them badly... hahaha... i want to be a fierce man already... now 1 of nepal staff dont dare to talk with me and ask me... bcs last week i scold him so loud bcs of they both doing sirim which is sticker to the product... and i count they miss some of the sticker sirim.. i scold them and they thought i am playing a round.. so i shout to him... i am seriously... do not laugh... and he use their languages and look around... i feel that he scold me.. i more angry and shout talk malay la... hahaha... after that time finish time to go home... i call him and he dont bother me... i damn angry and i scold him ci bai.. hahaha... what kind of the staff is this... i told my dad about it... and my dad told me next time lock the door and dont let him go back and explain to him what he want... haiz... headache...
now counting going to China.. heard from mum the weather very cool... i say i wear blazzer lo... hahaha.. this time can show my handsome... hahaha... thing too much... work must be serious... my parent keep play me that dont go china and come back dont bring a girlfriend wor... hahaha... i told myself i do not want to get into relationship first... i want to concentrate in my job first... when i can take care of myself and i have own kejayaan i will think to have a relationship... now for me i just want my family... and now i love Marsha... ^^ hahaha... next year will have one more.. yay... i feel i am old already... hahaha... now i want to spend with my parent first... and enjoy my single time.. ^^
time pass very fast my sis, brother in law and marsha already back to indonesia... so sad... our house feel quite.. hahaha.... nvm next year they will come again.. ^^
okay la.. wanted to sleep... always sleep at night not good...

God Bless you all and God With YOu...

Anton WInoto

做人

做人别太装，早晚要受伤；
做人别太滑，迟早要挨砸；
做人别太坏，迟早要被踹；
做人别揭短，迟早被人铲；
做人别太奸，都有一片天；
做人别怕苦，早晚会幸福；
做人别贪财，钞票把你埋；
做人别怕挫，看看他和我；
做人别太傻，早晚被人耍；
做人别滥情，爱一个就行。
 不要那么轻易说永远,这人世间没有永远的事。
所以要活在当下,珍惜现在。

愛

为什么我会这么不能自拔地愛上她甚至连她做了一些让我不高兴的事我还是不忍心对她脾气。这就是愛呀。
不是说过，会义无反顾地去愛她。不顾她的一切。
有时候嘴巴说不在意，但是当我面对的时候原来不是这样的。我想我还不够了解她吧。
记得，要对彼此有信心。只要一旦有疑惑，那就不是愛。