Saturday, July 5, 2014

My feeling.

Already pass few months. everyday busy with my work.. always argue about work, friends and family. but i handle it with my faith and give to mighty God. All the problem will have the solution. problem everyone have. we need to settle it do not run when the problem come. yes i had been run away from Jesus for few months. because of my relationship and my daily life is really broken. i away from church, everything go good. i am very well and enjoy. but my love doesn't make me fulfill. because i had been a worst choice to let go my be lover. as i though i am strong enough. but end up i am a lonely man. from this i had been wasted my time doing nothing. every monday to saturday just keep working and sunday sleep until afternoon. my life like this. keep repeating. for few weeks i feel enjoy. but end up i more sad. why ? i just keep feel i am lonely.. and away from god is a good choice also.. i thought i can handle it with my own brain and will go it very well. but end up i get more hurt. problem with my work place and my staff. i feel like i am smart enough but end up i had nothing. have more friend is good. they also can share about outside news and also idea. family, how i am they still love me. specially my mum. she keep telling the GOD's Words. keep repeating everyday. one day i saw her cry, she pray to me for happiness. i am really happy that i have my mum. how ever i do she love me. i just don't bother her and keep let her sad and cry. yes she not cry in font of me. she keep ask around my friend about me. until my friend scold me. what happen with your family? i just keep silence.. from this i had slap and remind me how important is family. i really thank to God Jesus that i have a great MUM that i have.

today suddenly i heart the song of (好久不见) i keep repeating the song and make me think back my ex girlfriend. i take out my CD that she gave me for our 1st anniversary gift. this the best gift that i had before. its not expensive but its valuable. its our 1 year memory happy and tears. when i see this i feel that uni time very sweet because of i have a great Girlfriend. she is the best to me. she care me love me sayang me. how matter we argue she will say sorry to me what matter i wrong she will say sorry to me and make me happy. i am really happy with her. when i watch the CD that she gave me. first she change a lot from her out looks. last time i remember she had a nonong head. which is indonesian word nonong means luo han yu. chinese fish. she had a great head. haha... we went to muar together with uni friend and and we have take pic that she wearing the formal and i am wearing a sunway shirt. its really sweetness. i keep remember when she emo or sad she will listening the song and sometimes will cry. i had been make her smile always but not always. i remember she like to play sudoku.. hahaha... i also join it and play. she always say me slow.. hahha yes i agree that i am slow.. i feel that i am the happiness in the world that i have my other side of partner. its really sad for me to let her go.. she had been lost control and very emo.. i make her have a different girl. she is a cute, smart, have a big dream, have a big confident and more. after i break up with her. she totaly change, she no more confident and no target in her life. as i know and i feel and see. i am really feel my fault that i make this girl totally lost in her big dream. i had try to get back with her. but she reject me. She said she no confident with me. yes she said is correct because i had let her go like this. and i want to get her back like this. everything have change. time cannot go back. its hurt and how ever its already pass. i just want her back last time. as she said she have many dream to aim. i want make her to a chief the dream. what can i do now is i keep pray for her healthy and family and friend around her. i feel this i can make for her.

我來到 你的城市 走過你來時的路
想像著 沒我的日子 你是怎樣的孤獨
拿著你 給的照片 熟悉的那一條街
只是沒了你的畫面 我們回不到那天
我會帶著笑臉 揮手寒喧
和你 坐著聊聊天
不再去說從前 只是寒喧
對你說一句 只是說一句 好久不見

this song make me think about her.
by the way God Bless you all and my family and friends and my ex Girlfriend.
Good night.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014


康熙,Can't see,

Thursday, December 26, 2013

men and women






... 我身體不舒服,誰擔心我?
你輝煌的時候,身邊全是朋友. 當你落魄的時候,身邊連條狗都沒有。              

Monday, December 9, 2013

marry cant divorce

Marry is a wonderful moment. Marry to someone cant be force, cant be want have sex, cant only for play, cant be only love. Forever together for marriage the thing is must have communication, no secret and also from God's Jesus. When we have to decided to live with him or her must accept all his or her what he or she had all things. As a husband love his wife so much because of his wife very pretty and few years later specially when his's wife pregnant, its really hard for women to back to slim.. some more women hormone is more than men so we cant hope wife to be slim as soon as possible. Next, when husband and wife together do not have hide anything with each other. example they had their own mobile phone and we can put our password and we must let our partner know because husband and wife 2 become 1. other example, for the bank account. can have 2 account but the amount each other must know about it. cannot said this is for own private and for future if he or she do not want have the treasure. when he or she got plan for this so one of them or both of them willing to divorce in future or might have think for break up. every partner also have the problem. divorce cant make the problem settle. so guys lets think twice and divorce not make a good deal for settle the problem. every partner sure have the problem.. problem make us more know each other well.. for a lot example, for a small things like toothpaste not press from bottom to top and argue come out. So i want to tell u all do not play with the marry.. God's Jesus do not want us to divorce...

Anton Winoto

Sunday, December 8, 2013




Friday, December 6, 2013

Dec 2013

Its December.. end of the 2013 year. now i have to plan my saving money... i do not want to spend into other not useful thing... i planning that i want to save 50% of my salary and other 10 for church and 5 for offering and 10 for my parents and other 25 for my daily use... but i think twice that i cant save too much... i just want to use the kwsp way for help me save my future money... so i will take out 22% from my income. and other 15% in Church. 33% i will put in my FD... and other i will spend on my daily use like shopping, play badminton and other... i hopefully i can control my saving plan and try do not expend more than 30% from my income.. because in future my family need the money.. so i feel that i can manage my plan well. i also want to learn English well and must change my life to be active and more active in my work side... i waste my time with my useless things and waste my time on someone that i really love so much.. but for me i and her cant be back and be a good end... so i feel that its good for me to let her go and just focus on my work and my family and important is my Jesus... Yes i long time did not go to my Own church but for me important is our hearth is for Jesus and keep pray to HIM. when i am down i feel of thinking of someone... human can hurt me but Jesus not leave me alone.. for people do not know who are HIM maybe though i keep pray but HE not reply my pray. i can tell you all when we pray HE is listening to us and want us to be more pray to him and make our heart to JESUS only... HE will give the way for us.. the Best way... Believe me... Jesus is the Way To the Heaven...


Monday, November 25, 2013

24 Nov 2013

Sunday, i had spend almost a day with her.. 24 Nov is my special day and i wont let this day unhappy.. because its a good to me..
Saturday night we and my few friends went to the astro battle.. we watch the dance and the pop.. and she said her friend was join the competition and its amazing.. when we reach he at the stage performed.. hahaha... we enjoy the dance and also know few friends... after we watch we eat at jalan petaling.. after that we going home. after i back home i not sleep until 4 am.. because i rushing make the stars for her.. and i wrote my feeling to her.. make her to be strong and do not get hurt with the relationship.. awhile i make the stars my eyes keep closing.. hahaha... finally i done with it and put 2 dian er for her.. which mean hope she have a good mans to love her and protect her.. i should want make 99 dian er but i cant make it.. because it take 5 mins to make one... so i no time to do this.. sorry about this.. 99 mean forever..
we morning go to church after church we had lunch at paradigm mall at chilli restaurant. hahaha.. i enjoy it and first i think why she not keep look at her phone and smsing wth him leh?? is it they have a problem? argue or already become single?? and i ask her and she said ntg lo... after we had our lunch we walk walk and not longer she feel want go for the motor show.. at PWTC, i willing to go with her again.. i already went there on Saturday.. hahaha... at the end we went to the PWTC.. in side i keep see her, she start pressing her phone.. and i go see her... hahha.. at first not her bf.. i feel... wow... now she have more friends... good... but i saw her phone that her bf name.. i feel sad... hahaha... she keep busying chat and press her phone... haiz.... after that night we having dinner with chee hong so we 3 having dinner and talk a lot.. we have fun and also chat with ch mum... his mum very friendly.. hehhee... we finish eat our dinner we going home.. on the way home we also have talk and i tell her about my feeling .. but i still have some cant tell her... i dont know why... but i just want to say i still love her... yes you have bf and i will protect you when you need it.. ^^ i also dont know why i do this... maybe i love you too much gua... some of my friends and my family member said to me you sot liao la... but i tell them you cant ajudted us like this.. not i kena use or play... is i ask her and she ask me so... so cant be i sot... hahhaa.... okay la... its already pass and we just a friend... i just wish her happy... ^^ i will always curi curi love you from behind...