Thursday, December 26, 2013

men and women

男:我沒有錢。
女:我們一起賺。
男:我沒有房,
女:我們一起蓋。
男:我沒有車,
女:我們一起步行,還鍛煉身體!
男:你愛我什麼。
女:你的雙手可以創造一切,最主要的是你每晚睡覺時可以抱著我,我不會孤獨。

三年後他有了自己的房子,開著自己的車子,帶著她和孩子去旅遊,她幸福的笑了!

(二)
男:我沒有錢。
女:你出去賺。
男:我沒有房,
女:你自己去蓋。
男:我沒有車,
女:那我們出去旅遊怎麼辦?
男:我真的愛你,
女:等你有錢、有房、有車了再來娶我!

三年後他有了自己的房子,自己的車子,更有一個疼他愛他的老婆,還有一個可愛的孩子,而她還是一個人,她去找他。
女:你不是愛我嗎,為什麼
男:那是我沒有錢沒有房沒有車的時候。
女:我沒關係,我只在乎你的現在,
男:我有關係,我只在乎你的現實。
女:你以前的一切我不在乎,只要能和你在一起。
男:我現在的一切我更在乎,這一切和你沒關係。
她傷心的離開,面對孤獨。
他快樂的回家,享受幸福。

這是一個社會現實,告訴我們,不要活在當下,要放眼未來,幸福是兩個人創造的,我有一切的時候也就不缺你了……                    

你寂寞,我陪你
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你難過,我逗你開心!
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你身體不舒服,我擔心你!
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你做錯了,我理解你!
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你難受,我懂你!
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你的小脾氣,我包容你!
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一切我都可以為了你!
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可我呢?我寂寞,誰陪我?
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我難過,誰逗我開心?
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... 我身體不舒服,誰擔心我?
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我錯了,誰理解我?
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我難受,誰懂我?
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我的小脾氣,誰包容我?
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這一切,誰可以為了我?
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我是人!不是神!我需要愛!
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我也需要被愛
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更需要你關心我!理解我!包容我!在乎我!這些!你懂不懂?
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其實我多想每天早上都能收到一條短信,裡面寫著:“懶豬快起床啦。記得要吃早餐哦。
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多想每天晚上都能收到一條短信,裡面寫著:笨蛋睡覺了。蓋好被子不要著涼。 
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轉到朋友圈裡看看誰會關心你?誰會在乎你? 
有一句話我始終相信:只有在自己落難的時候才會看清什麼是朋友,什麼是狗。              
你輝煌的時候,身邊全是朋友. 當你落魄的時候,身邊連條狗都沒有。              
經歷一些事讀懂一些人。不要以為我傻,只是有些東西我看在眼裡,埋在心裡。             
出賣我一次,沒關係,人都會犯錯-     
出賣我兩次,沒關係,人都會犯渾-      
出賣我三次,沒關係,不過以後我會對你加防備-      
出賣我四次,對不起,你哪位?             
得意時,“朋友”認識了我。     
落難時,我認識了朋友

Monday, December 9, 2013

marry cant divorce

Marry is a wonderful moment. Marry to someone cant be force, cant be want have sex, cant only for play, cant be only love. Forever together for marriage the thing is must have communication, no secret and also from God's Jesus. When we have to decided to live with him or her must accept all his or her what he or she had all things. As a husband love his wife so much because of his wife very pretty and few years later specially when his's wife pregnant, its really hard for women to back to slim.. some more women hormone is more than men so we cant hope wife to be slim as soon as possible. Next, when husband and wife together do not have hide anything with each other. example they had their own mobile phone and we can put our password and we must let our partner know because husband and wife 2 become 1. other example, for the bank account. can have 2 account but the amount each other must know about it. cannot said this is for own private and for future if he or she do not want have the treasure. when he or she got plan for this so one of them or both of them willing to divorce in future or might have think for break up. every partner also have the problem. divorce cant make the problem settle. so guys lets think twice and divorce not make a good deal for settle the problem. every partner sure have the problem.. problem make us more know each other well.. for a lot example, for a small things like toothpaste not press from bottom to top and argue come out. So i want to tell u all do not play with the marry.. God's Jesus do not want us to divorce...

Anton Winoto

Sunday, December 8, 2013

恋爱和永爱

谈恋爱是很开心的事,因为和喜欢的人在一起。或许爱一个人能在一起一下是因为两方的错或对对方的爱不够。谈恋爱是断站的开心是一下罢了。如果真的很爱一个人不管这样会对另一半着想。一当进入结婚是一定要对彼此跟恩爱和开心。因为结婚是刚开始的第一步。我寻找自己的爱情,但我觉得自己的选择是会错的。因为我们两方没有公开的面具。我觉得让上帝给我的安排我的未来和幸福。或许我和她不能和结束了,我还依然的爱他。我真的要把我和他的事解决吧。但我们不能挽回我希望你真的不要向世界一样和慢慢的离开神。我每天都听YOUTUBE教会的讲到让我变得跟有力量。希望明年的我会比较开心。

王德秀上

Friday, December 6, 2013

Dec 2013

Its December.. end of the 2013 year. now i have to plan my saving money... i do not want to spend into other not useful thing... i planning that i want to save 50% of my salary and other 10 for church and 5 for offering and 10 for my parents and other 25 for my daily use... but i think twice that i cant save too much... i just want to use the kwsp way for help me save my future money... so i will take out 22% from my income. and other 15% in Church. 33% i will put in my FD... and other i will spend on my daily use like shopping, play badminton and other... i hopefully i can control my saving plan and try do not expend more than 30% from my income.. because in future my family need the money.. so i feel that i can manage my plan well. i also want to learn English well and must change my life to be active and more active in my work side... i waste my time with my useless things and waste my time on someone that i really love so much.. but for me i and her cant be back and be a good end... so i feel that its good for me to let her go and just focus on my work and my family and important is my Jesus... Yes i long time did not go to my Own church but for me important is our hearth is for Jesus and keep pray to HIM. when i am down i feel of thinking of someone... human can hurt me but Jesus not leave me alone.. for people do not know who are HIM maybe though i keep pray but HE not reply my pray. i can tell you all when we pray HE is listening to us and want us to be more pray to him and make our heart to JESUS only... HE will give the way for us.. the Best way... Believe me... Jesus is the Way To the Heaven...

AntonWinoto

Monday, November 25, 2013

24 Nov 2013

Sunday, i had spend almost a day with her.. 24 Nov is my special day and i wont let this day unhappy.. because its a good to me..
Saturday night we and my few friends went to the astro battle.. we watch the dance and the pop.. and she said her friend was join the competition and its amazing.. when we reach he at the stage performed.. hahaha... we enjoy the dance and also know few friends... after we watch we eat at jalan petaling.. after that we going home. after i back home i not sleep until 4 am.. because i rushing make the stars for her.. and i wrote my feeling to her.. make her to be strong and do not get hurt with the relationship.. awhile i make the stars my eyes keep closing.. hahaha... finally i done with it and put 2 dian er for her.. which mean hope she have a good mans to love her and protect her.. i should want make 99 dian er but i cant make it.. because it take 5 mins to make one... so i no time to do this.. sorry about this.. 99 mean forever..
we morning go to church after church we had lunch at paradigm mall at chilli restaurant. hahaha.. i enjoy it and first i think why she not keep look at her phone and smsing wth him leh?? is it they have a problem? argue or already become single?? and i ask her and she said ntg lo... after we had our lunch we walk walk and not longer she feel want go for the motor show.. at PWTC, i willing to go with her again.. i already went there on Saturday.. hahaha... at the end we went to the PWTC.. in side i keep see her, she start pressing her phone.. and i go see her... hahha.. at first not her bf.. i feel... wow... now she have more friends... good... but i saw her phone that her bf name.. i feel sad... hahaha... she keep busying chat and press her phone... haiz.... after that night we having dinner with chee hong so we 3 having dinner and talk a lot.. we have fun and also chat with ch mum... his mum very friendly.. hehhee... we finish eat our dinner we going home.. on the way home we also have talk and i tell her about my feeling .. but i still have some cant tell her... i dont know why... but i just want to say i still love her... yes you have bf and i will protect you when you need it.. ^^ i also dont know why i do this... maybe i love you too much gua... some of my friends and my family member said to me you sot liao la... but i tell them you cant ajudted us like this.. not i kena use or play... is i ask her and she ask me so... so cant be i sot... hahhaa.... okay la... its already pass and we just a friend... i just wish her happy... ^^ i will always curi curi love you from behind...

Antonwinoto

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

back to write my feeling in this few weeks

4th Nov to 14 Nov i went to China for work with my Mother. We had safety back to Malaysia, Thanks God give us safe and smooth when we at China. I has learn a lot in ten days. i learn how to deal with the person, give them a great and have a basic of personal respect. i also train myself how to cool down my anger. example normally when people shout at me i will though he or she angry at me and so that i shout him or her back. most of them speak very laughs and no manner. because of their daily life and also normal to them. i had learn how to see the product and also see around to other factory. example we have gone thou the fan factory and we ask for the product and we also have to compare with other factory which is same model and different the price and also the value.
In my mind i want to be a small boss, which mean i want to try to take my own things to Malaysia and sell in local.. i had my own saving and i would try to make it more than what i have now. example i have 1k and i make it to 2k and slowly to make more model. first i told my mother my idea but my mother reply me better do not do this. if you want make this Panalux company become bigger and every year will get bonus.. but i replied a bonus just like a few month of the salary.. hahaha... my mind too greedy.. hahahaha!!! i rethink i shouldn't do this. because i do not have a experiences and i cant too greedy and think of myself.. however parent will let their son the best. so i will prove myself to get more marketing in this company..
after few days i back from China i had an idea to create a online shops. which is i sell my company product in the online such as facebook, blogs, and many more.. first my mother like agree with my idea.. but she told me must tell father and team with your brother to get know more a knowledge. At the end i share my idea with all which is my parent, my brother and my da sao. i just said online product he strait said NO! i feel sad and i reply him why? he said NO mean NO! and my brother speak to my father you should explain why you said NO. and my father still not give the reason. and i argue with him.. like this our company cant become bigger and our sales still the same.. second if we selling in the internet our company Panalux might people know it and also give our company advertising space! He just reply me now you are warehouse Leader so just make sure your warehouse keep clean make work normal.. i am sad and feel sad because of this.. haiz....
i feel i am not value in this company and i rethink i also not listen what my boss want me to do.. i always reject and argue with him... hahaha... because some of the reason i not respect him la.. hahaha... secret... ^^

Few days ago i saw her FB and she wrote she feel sad.. i feel what happen to her?? she not happy with her study? stress?? or her relationship have problem? or maybe she miss me?? hahaha this impossible.. because she not love me anymore.. by the way i just hope she happy and always pray to Jesus and Jesus will lead you to the true of the heaven way... HE will give you everything goods to You.. I will always pray for your study and your family and daily life...
I had shock that she sms me .. hahaha... its make me feel happy but i will remind it anton she just your friend... do not thing too much.. hahaha... by the way just hope she will happy... even thou she not mine... she happy i also will happy..

Anton Winoto

Thursday, November 14, 2013

love faith

When you really love Someone, you'd do everything for her.
Even if it is what you least enjoy doing, you'd still do it without complaint.
This love faith!

You cant lie to yourdself forever, you will have to face up to your feelings one day.
No one could resist temptations no matter how lofty his idealswere.
Anton winoto

Sunday, November 3, 2013

tomorrow

Few more hours i will fly to China.. i feel sad because leave malaysia... i gone to be a muture man... to see the world... need to be more responsible... anton jia you.. i will be the best for my work and my future... i will let my family and company see that my value is high.. ^^ lets the pass to be my lesson, today is janour and tomorrow is the future... this few days busy not update too much... some more i will less to write my blog... i will be the best... hope all my friend happy and healthy... especially her... hope she happy... and enjoy her life... pray more get more... less pray less bless... no pray no bless...

Antonwinoto

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

back to blogs.

almost a week i do not write my blog... hahaha... maybe i am busy do my things and work... btw last week i went to setia walk with my family and my other church friends and pastor... we enjoy that time because celebrate my Marsha come to Malaysia and my sister and brother in law... we finish eat and i go pay for the bill.. my friend is the owner of the shop... call agape... its a western food and its nice... when i call for the bill.. my friend ask me she is malaysian?? and i reply yes she is malaysian... and then she said your gf pretty... and i replied her that she not my gf and she is my ex... wow... this first time i say like this.... btw its pass let it go... now what we have we need to go through.. as the people said pass is our history and pelajaran, now is our live and the future is our mission....
now a days i still headache about my staff... i treat them as a close friend, when they need help i always help them... now i feel that they step over me... and i want to change about it... i am a leader so i cant agree what they want me to do... which mean i call them do they must do it.... if not i will scold them badly... hahaha... i want to be a fierce man already... now 1 of nepal staff dont dare to talk with me and ask me... bcs last week i scold him so loud bcs of they both doing sirim which is sticker to the product... and i count they miss some of the sticker sirim.. i scold them and they thought i am playing a round.. so i shout to him... i am seriously... do not laugh... and he use their languages and look around... i feel that he scold me.. i more angry and shout talk malay la... hahaha... after that time finish time to go home... i call him and he dont bother me... i damn angry and i scold him ci bai.. hahaha... what kind of the staff is this... i told my dad about it... and my dad told me next time lock the door and dont let him go back and explain to him what he want... haiz... headache...
now counting going to China.. heard from mum the weather very cool... i say i wear blazzer lo... hahaha.. this time can show my handsome... hahaha... thing too much... work must be serious... my parent keep play me that dont go china and come back dont bring a girlfriend wor... hahaha... i told myself i do not want to get into relationship first... i want to concentrate in my job first... when i can take care of myself and i have own kejayaan i will think to have a relationship... now for me i just want my family... and now i love Marsha... ^^ hahaha... next year will have one more.. yay... i feel i am old already... hahaha... now i want to spend with my parent first... and enjoy my single time.. ^^
time pass very fast my sis, brother in law and marsha already back to indonesia... so sad... our house feel quite.. hahaha.... nvm next year they will come again.. ^^
okay la.. wanted to sleep... always sleep at night not good...

God Bless you all and God With YOu...

Anton WInoto

Saturday, October 26, 2013

做人

做人别太装,早晚要受伤;
做人别太滑,迟早要挨砸;
做人别太坏,迟早要被踹;
做人别揭短,迟早被人铲;
做人别太奸,都有一片天;
做人别怕苦,早晚会幸福;
做人别贪财,钞票把你埋;
做人别怕挫,看看他和我;
做人别太傻,早晚被人耍;
做人别滥情,爱一个就行。

 不要那么轻易说永远,这人世间没有永远的事。
所以要活在当下,珍惜现在。

Friday, October 25, 2013

为什么我会这么不能自拔地愛上她甚至连她做了一些让我不高兴的事我还是不忍心对她脾气。这就是愛呀。
不是说过,会义无反顾地去愛她。不顾她的一切。
有时候嘴巴说不在意,但是当我面对的时候原来不是这样的。我想我还不够了解她吧。
记得,要对彼此有信心。只要一旦有疑惑,那就不是愛。

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Life nowadays

Life nowadays

Everyone do their best in their relationship, friendship and Families.

Although some might not, But I've tired my best, even there have some problems sometimes, But I always thought people will be appreciate what I did.


I can be jokes in front of you, I can be maid or even an angel for you.

But Don't take me for granted.  I respect anyone who respect me. I love anyone who love me.

But I know in some kind of relationship, The longer you stay, the faded it will be.
I told many guys " never stop chasing a girl" even she had belongs to you.
No doubt, in this world, there a lots of girls being sacrificed for guys.... which i do believe

As a girl, I will sacrificed for you as well, but I realized The more I sacrificed for you, the more you take me for granted. Don't ever try to do that.  


Just to remind you, once I turn away, I will never come back.
Even though I will regret, Even I think about you sometimes, But I know what I want. I choose to live better or happier. People always says that It's hard to continue chasing but It's harder to give up.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Tuesday 22/10/2013

God afternoon, i just had my lunch... Now i feel very full... Hehehe... Yesterday busy with my work so not post my daily status... My sister came Malaysian and we very happy... Can see my Marsha... Hehehe... Sunday when they reach here and i open the door and i want hug her... Only for a sec Marsha start crying... Omg... She forget me already... Sad lor... Or now she know people already so she choose... Hehehe... Btw i happy she come and also can see my sis and sister in law... At night we went to friends wedding... Its in the sime darby mont kiara... Its very high class and there a lot rich people... Hahaha... I feel like i am a poor man in that area... They sure have thier college or uni certs... And i am just a high school... Hahaha... Btw nvm... I still act to be rich man... Hahaha.... Its really see a lot lenglui and lengzai there... And i see one girl which is last year my sister invite her to perform in my sister wedding... My friends invited her come to perform her viola, a lot type of music.. Total around 20 songs and they paid her rm 2500 wow... Including air ticket for 3 and the hotel... Wow... Its amazing... We also took a lot pic... Which is very cute... Hehehe... In my instagram... Name is antonwinoto90 ^^... At that night i eat a lot but not finish we go home first bcs of marsha crying and we also tired... When in the car i feel hungry so me and my sister in law go da bao food... Hahaha... My mum say you all not go for the party? We said got but still not enough... Hahaha.... We eat wan tan mee and kuew diao....
The next day monday, i have to do a lot work... Bcs of the staff not come 2 nepal... Haiz... They said want ot but every time mc only... Apa la mereka... So my bro call the boss and ask the boss to settle... Hehehe...  Now every staff very mafan... I alsow ant to hire some staff can be trust and do good work...
Today also a busy day... Need to open the container... One of my staf mc and open by own lor... Lucky big item... Hehe... Total 28 pallets...
Ok... I go star work de....
God bless you all...

Anton Winoto

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Sunday

today morning i wake up late... hahaha... she call me only i woke up... maybe i too tired for this week... average sleep only 4-6 hours a day... really make me tired and i feel want get sleep for 24 hours... hahaha... some more i go sunway very jam because of they have an event of maraton running... haiyo... but never mind we can reach there before 1115... but we miss the prayer... today the Church told us that we need to prayer more.. and we need to pray for all things...
after church we 3 go for lunch and my sister call me for a lunch but i already eating half way... so after my lunch i send them and i go back home see my sis and my marsha... wooo.. ^^

Antonwinoto

Saturday

Busy day and tired day... Some more unlucky day.... Busy is bcs this week work too much and my staff 1 mc and less worker and need to do by own and i feel wan die already... But i still alive... Hehehe... Tdy going out 45 pallets of item to the shops and all do it in the nice way.. Lucky my staff got help me tdy... And my brother too... Weeehuuu... And night i went to disney mickey mouse musical magic... Its quite funny but not so good for me... I prefer last year the shrek... More active and more adault... Aftert hat want go back home.. My car out of sudden stop... Omg... I was pek jek lor... Haiz... I thought i can reach home at 12 but its seem like cant at all... I call my brother friend and he told me this and that i try still cant work... My bro also help me do this and that also cant... Finally i do it myself and the problem is the key there.... Haiz... Sudah lecek... So need to hold it only can start the engiene.... My brother come and i wait him come and we go back together... Haiz... I feel having car also burn money... Meed go fix again... Inara... This months i also bo lui... Amd next month salary gone... Bcs spend too much... Need to control already.... Okay la too tired de... Now almost 3 need sleep. Tmr need go church... Good night all... Jesus love you...

Antonwinoto

Thursday, October 17, 2013

hari terkejut

Remember that u have said ny dog dou dou lost? Already a week and today morninfg out of sudden he brake and my mum and da sao go down see its dou dou! Wah!!!! Doudou is back! Amazing dog... one week dont know go wjere... my da sao go give dou dou foods and doudou eat a lot... and come to my room and sleep beside me... hahahaha! Dou dou looks thin and feel tired lor... and sleep for awhile i need go out for work de... and dou dou go garden... thanks God doudou come back safely...

Amazing today!!! Hahaha

Anton Winoto

busy day

This week a busy day... i hope that i can tahan with my work now... Jesus give me strength to through this... and i give me intelligent to manage my worker and the warehouse... i need to be strong and learn more with my dad and mum and my brother... now i already 23 going to 24... need to be mature anton... as i said want go America next year... so come on do the best and save more money... ^^ now i am counting down my day to China... which left 19 days need to say bye with Malaysia.. and welcome to China... ^^ hehehe... feel happy and miss here...
do not know at there how leh?? hahaha... is it busy everyday? or more relax? i also dont know.. just move it on... learn more and do better and dont learn bad lor...
now i headache is my ticket Mickey Mouse VIP which is this Saturday for 2 heads. this ticket should be she and me... but now she reject to watch with me... so what to do with this ne?? i want go that function... last year i went to SHREK the Musical... its nice... hahaha... i enjoy it...
okay lah now too late de.. want to sleep... tomorrow need to back for work....

Anton Winoto

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

我这次真的输了

我第一次对一个女人上到很深,真的对感情受到伤害。
过了这么久我还会默默地想念她,有时想要哭。
真的很难受,我也不知道这么办。
以前我的梦想很大,帮父母的公司。然后又多余的钱开一家饭店或CAFE给她做老板娘,真的很大。那时我有那么的信心会做到。
但现在我没有什么目标,一片空白。我真的很想让我的不予开的伤心拿掉。真的很累,有很怕。
我想和她在挽回但是我很怕她会离开我,而现在她有另一个他我反而很妒忌;如果现在去追她我有怕被拒绝,而现在她有男友了我不想当第三者。但我觉得我不适合她。真的我不知道我想这么办。但我一想念她时我会哭和想她。
我想我要变自己跟长大,我要过的开心。笑笑。

王德秀上。

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

我还记得我们认识的第一天,真的很奇妙。我觉得她是很可爱的女生,很像小孩子。她是对自己有很大的梦和对学业很理想和很会笑的女孩,她的笑容很让人开心。她平明的对事业,我喜欢她的一切。真的她是个很好的女子,谁当她的老公是很幸福的。我只会祈祷让她永远快乐和健康。我会永远的默默地爱她。

王德秀上。

Monday, October 14, 2013

回想

我真的很想以前的生活和她,我觉得我很开心和新福的男人。我真的好想你对我的爱和关心,真的很甜蜜。我真的想要会去那时代。如果能从新再来我会一辈子保护你爱你疼你!已没有你我的人生没有那个力量。以前我的梦很大,现在我没有那个力量去完整。现在想一个人简单的生活吧。没有木票和路,当我失去爱情真的像明天是世界末日。haiz。。。

王德秀上

Night go around

Monday nights, went with friend go around and drink... Beacuse tmr is tuesday which is public holiday... First of all we went eat bai kut teh, after that we meet with friend at ss15 AC... At first i also blur want bring her go or not leh? Bcs she not my gf anymore... But since tmr holiday and if she free can go along lor... I am also scare that her bf argue with her... I feel like i am bad... But at the end i ask her and she said okay lor... But i know spshe like kena force go lor... Haiz.... At first we went AC and we have a lot topic... After that we next go giza... We go around and sit in house and drink and i see why she less use phone leh... Is it argue de? I ask her are you okay? Sue replied yeah i am okay... But i know the answer not okay, bcs of i ask at a lot ppl...  I might be a bad person... Bcs i still ask her to go out and until so late... Bcs of she already have bf... As i am in her bf position i also get jealous and angry... Haiz... I might still have feeling to her... But i know she only have him no me... Haiz... Maybe hats good that she forget me... Bcs i cant give her a happiness... Bcs now i think that when we both together last time... We nothing to talk... Just sms like caring such good morning, good night, eat liao ma? How are you? Doing what? Hehe? And haha? Haiz... I feel like we noth nothing much... Maybe we not open to each other bah... Or i do not have big knowlegde to share to her lor... When we meet we always argue... And when we argue we both want win so end up not good... Yes, now she have him... He have a good look than me... More intiligent... More talk to her... And also love her... I feel i am jealous with this... Bcs i feel she is the best gf that i had and she will care about my feeling and know me... The most importand she wont betray me... But i cant hold her hand and i let her go... Yes she now at other guys hand and i hope you will happy... Bcs i am not a good man... To be honest... I am not suite you... I will slowly leave you... And wish you happy... Bcs i am really bad guy, and not good for you... I last time let you go bcs of i do not have confident to let you happy... Bcs i am still cant take care of myself and i am selfish person... But i am really sorry that hurt you so deep... Make you sad, make you no safety, and make your studies become bad mark.... To be honest... Bcs of something that i done i cant face you last time... Seriously... I cant tell here... Bcs its a secret... But i know you cant forgive me of this... And i know that i wont have you back... To be honest last time we chat in whatsapp when i at jb and you send me that is it we can get back? I wanted to get back to you... I want to protect you forever... But since that i know u have bf my heart broken... I am also sad... I try to get u back but u reject me... I cant accept bcs on aug u asked me is it we can get back? This make me more love you and got chance to be with you... But end up i know that you already have bf and end up you reject me so deeply... Yes i am sad and hurt... But i still love you... But i cant be the thirt person.. Seriously... I just want you to be happy with what you choose and what you have make the way... Seriously i will bless you... Thanks so much that you have a big dream which that youw ant go sg work... Yes its a good income... But i scare you will get tired and sick... When i heart that i feel want ask you to live in kl.... But now i cant ask you to leave bcs i a, not your important person... Haiz.... I am really make you changes... Yeah as u said you become mature... But i feel last time you more good and cute... Now you likes so different... I likes your friendlyness and kind heart... As i know you with all friends are good... I feel you are a wonderfull girl and happy girl... Until i hurts you, you are changes... Yes changes are good, but must see change to be good or bad... For now yes i still cant forget you and i know your heart cant to be love me anymore... As words have said when you hurt someone once deeply its will stick it.... Cant to be forget... Haiz... I also regret what i have done and i had spoken to you... Haiz... I hope you understand me and forgive me what i have hurt you.... Btw Jesus love you and Jesus with you always...
I want sleep de... Good nights....

Anton Winoto

Sunday, October 13, 2013

monday

Its a monday... feel monday not good bcs of first day of the week,feel need to work for few more days... until saturday is relax day... hahaha...
Yesterday i and her went to kelana jaya stadium for Maria day... we go there and huge of people there... i feel its amazing... a lot different country and races... i sit on top and behind... first we stand not longer the usher take the chair and give to us so we can sit.. hehehe... around 1 something only finish... my stomach feel emtpy and sound come out... which mean i hungry... hahaha... so we went to publika for our lunch.. we use map to go there... i first time went there and its really high class and looks great... wheb we park our car there and we go down we saw one of the singapore arties... wow! He drove nissan latio!Hahaha! We both eat like fine dinning... its great bcs the shop is selling shirt and foods... good idea... its quite expensive and nice... but i seem like not suite eat western foods... bcs of the wei dao bah... after that we shop at publika and she said no shirt to shopand then we go kl... h&m shops... wow! We in there almost 2 hours... really, girl shops really very long... go up and down and up again and go down again... haha... long time no go shop like this... i feel tired... hahaha! Guys accompany girls shop make guys leg pain... hahaha! But i enjoy that day... ^^ after that we went to setia walk for a dinner... western food again... hahaha! So shuang.... but really tired and drink alchol...
13/10/2013
Anton Winoto

Saturday, October 12, 2013

好的

​第一句】被恨的人没有痛苦, 恨人的人却终将遍体鳞伤, 所以,绝不去恨人。

【第二句】缘分是本书, 翻得不经意会错过, 读得太认真会流泪。

【第三句】不同傻子争辩, 否则就搞不清谁是傻子了。

【第四句】学历是铜牌, 能力是银牌, 人脉是金牌, 思维是王牌。

【第五句】成功的人不是赢在起点, 而是赢在转折点。

【第六句】钱有两种:花掉的是钱, 是财产; 没花掉的是“纸”, 是遗产。

【第七句】长得那么美那么帅气, 自己却不知道, 这就是气质; 那么有钱那么有才华, 别人却不知道, 这就是修养。

【第八句】把脾气拿出来, 那叫本能; 把脾气压下去, 那叫本事。

【第九句】简单的事重复做, 你就是专家; 重复的事用心做, 你就是赢家。

【第十句】管好自的嘴, 讲话不要图一时痛快' 信口开河, “良言一句三冬暖, 伤人一语六月寒”, 说话要用脑子, 敏事慎言, 话多无益, 不扬人恶, 自然就能化敌为友。

【第十一句】没有爱的生活就象一片荒漠, 赠人玫瑰, 手有余香, 要“学会爱别人其实就是爱自己”, 让爱如同午后阳光温暖每个人的心房。

【第十二句】多去理解尊重别人, 常怀宽容感激之心, 宽容是一种美德是一种智慧, 海纳百川是多么广阔, 感激你的朋友, 是他们给了你帮助;感激你的敌人, 是他们让你变的坚强。

【第十三句】这个世界, 有两件事我们不能不做:一是赶路, 二是停下来看看自己是否拥有一份好心态, 好心态是一生的好伴侣, 让人愉悦健康。

【第十四句】人情, 人情, 人之常情, 要乐善好施, 长于交往, “平时不烧香, 急时抱佛脚”是行不通的, 所以, “人的情绪要储存”, 就象银行存款, 存的越多, 时间越长, 红利就越大。

【第十五句】遇事不要急躁。不要急于下结论, 尤其生气时不要做决断, 要学会换位思考, 大事化小、小事化了, 把复杂的事情尽量简单处理, 千万不要把简单的事情复杂化。

【第十六句】学会知足, 人生最大的烦恼是从最没有意义的比较开始, 这世界总有不如你的人, 也总有比你强的人, 当我哭泣我没有鞋子穿的时候, 我发现有人却没有了脚。

【第十七句】如果敌人让你生气, 那说明你还没有胜他的把握, 根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁?如果有一条疯狗咬了你一口, 难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗?不要太在乎别人的咒骂。

【第十八句】别把工作当负担, 与其生气埋怨, 不如积极快乐的去面对, 当你把工作当作生活和艺术, 你就会享受到工作的乐趣。

【第十九句】人活着一天, 就是有福气, 就应该珍惜, 人生短短几十年, 不要给自己留下更多的遗憾, 日出东海落西山, 愁也一天, 喜也一天; 遇事不钻牛角尖, 人也舒坦, 心也舒坦。
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Friday, October 11, 2013

星期六

今天开店我迟到了,哈哈哈!八分钟的迟到。下次要早一点。
今天是第三天我我豆豆不见了,全家人担心。我一开始没那么担心因为我的豆豆是会回来的,但到今天它还没回家真让我担心。那只狗是我和她的宠物,而现在不见了。不知不觉养了两年了。以前,当她来我家她会帮豆豆找kutu。哈哈哈!或许我和她真的完了。我真的希望豆豆不见不会被mpsj抓去。豆豆是我们家的宝,每次会到我或我爸妈房睡。很新福的豆豆,现在而不见了。
这几天真的发生很多事。我公司,工厂的货少。难道我还做得不好?这么办?谁来叫我呢?我真的要更上一晨露。多看书,多问人吧。加油德秀。
王德秀上

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Thursday 10/10/2013

Its a thursday, yeah working day... Back to work... For now i feel i am back to normal.. I am think think that should be over for me.. Yes i have a reason why i do this to you... Not the religion is my main... Bcs i want to get into a marry so as a man need to have own way and make the future women to obay, respect and support me.. As i see this, i might miss out a good women and strong women for me... But now i am relieze that we two are different... Yes i might a bit old fasion... But i will follow my Jesus the true the way HE lead me... I believe that HE give me the best... Yes i might turn a bit for my naughty men... But i will try to be straight... ^^ be happy and be strong... Today work day, a lot of sweatness.. Hahaha... And today i buy the ticket to China... Which is next month... Its really fast... Now almost mid of the month... I am get ready to fly... Counting down my day in malaysia... Hehehe... Get into new life... I hope in there i will get more muture and be stronger than now what i have... I wan to have a future brightness to Jesus and my life... Yes pass i waste a lot time to not good thing i put on... Now i want read bible and pray to Jesus... I want comunication with Jesus.. Want him to be my lover... So what things i want to share with HIM... I want to have love from HIM... Its a joyfull and great... ^^ just want to tell you all who get Jesus love its really enjoy and happiness... To be honess... U can laught until u cant stop... And might cry until you forgive the hateness to the persont hat you hated... I get it before... So believe in Jesus... HE is the way to the heaven!
Jesus love you and Jesus with you...
Good night...

Anton winoto

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

生病

昨晚觉得不舒服,今天真的生病了。生病的感觉很难受,真的很讨厌这样的感受。昨天,我看了朋友们的facebook。我觉得他们变了很多,而我还在落后。我觉得自己一个人,不像别人一样。或许我还是小孩吧,但我觉得我做对自己是好的。因为我不吸烟,喝是刚吧了。但现在我下定决心不要喝了。因为我要对神的陈诺和要让自己的身体健康。现在我八十五公斤。很开心,但我还要变70公斤。加油德秀。

王德秀上。

Sunday, October 6, 2013

长大了

我真的大开眼界,她真的变得很多。让我觉得放心,我觉得我分也对她跟程长。她都独立了,又有很大的梦!让我下一条,真的让我觉得我还是很弱后的。没关系,我会努力加倍的学会很多东西。
今天,我下午打羽球时。有一位年轻男人厉害,我真的想比一比。但我没一比一而我们二比二的🆚。到都来我赢。呵呵呵。打玩以后,我才知道他是读飞机师。让我觉得我没什么好,他比我小但他的智慧比我多。让我很羡慕,但我相信我依靠上帝耶稣。我不怕,因为他是为我们很好!

今天我真的很开心因为她变的很独立,我觉的很放心。我真的要和她多学习。
好了,我要睡了。 晚安。

王德秀上

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Exora

Today my exora number come out first price!!! Last week my exora kena bang by motor.. Wanted to buy for a week... But i think nt easy to kena...t hem i let it pass... Hahhaa... Saturday night my friend told me come out wor!!! Wtf!!! If rm 1 big and rm 1 small get rm 6k! I can buy a lot!!!haiz... When i buy no kena when not buy come out...sad case... Okay la tmr need to go church... Needd sleep... See you tmr... And good night...
Anton Winoto

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Special number

Last week i wanted to plan buy 2411... I waiting for this number come in 4D! Hahaha! But i not buy lar... I feel wan to buy... Last sat come out box 2411 which is 1241 in special! Omg... A bit more... And this wed come out 1241 in second price... Omg... Abit more 2411! This number i will like and remember forever... Meaningful to me... ^^ i hope before Dec will come out 2411,
AntonWinoto

Genting

I went to genting for 2 days one night... A bit tired of went with my mum friends... Total 5 of us go genting and i drove the car... When we reach we go sleep and night we go casino.. Hahaha! My old time back!!! My dad call me and give me rm 300 for play... He said if you win we half half and lose no need pay him back... I thought i am du sheng! Hahaha!!! Thats dream lor... First i won 185 and at last lose all... Hahaha... Its k... Dont bother... I told my dad and i lose... Hahaha! My mum scold me lor... Go play lor... Lose lor... And i said for fun ma... Long time play once... Hehehe... That night my mum's friend try play slot... And suddenly she got big win rm 300 which she put in rm 20 only... After that she feel happy and i told her jom we go back... Your room tonights free... But she feel dont wan to go and thought can up to rm 1000... At the end she won 180 then go back to hotel sleep... When we go back to hotel, we meed to wait so long bcs she use wheel chair and the escalator already off and we call the person in charce to switch on it and only we can go down to first world... Hahaha!!! Reach room at 2:30 then i go back straight sleep... Tired...
The next day wake up at 9 but i still sleepy until 9:35 only go bathe and prepare... Hahaha... Then we meet them and eat breakfast... After that the auntie still want to go for the casino.. I said in my hearth shit! Need to carry her again... Hahaha... Bcs she have big body and i need to carry her to old casino... Haiz... At the end she lose all lor... She told us gamble not good... Tipu de... Hahaha! When she won she said wah win want get more... When she lose she said cheated... Hahaha!!! Funny lor... Haiz today really tired... Need to send them to kl hotel.. Now very tired already... Need sleep... Good night...
Anton Winoto

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

结婚和谈恋爱

结婚和谈恋爱其实是两个概念。因为一旦结婚之后就是要有责任心。谈恋爱可能就是男女之间有的时候吵架一下,就是有的人他扛不下住压力他就会退出。但是我认为婚姻还是一纸𠄘诺,就是一定要从斗走到尾。
百分百的恋情,其实就是责任跟信任。就是你在做着自己的事,不用担心他在干吗。你相信他是你心中的唯一,你也是他心中的唯一。而责任是,责任有肩膀在去扛这感情。哭的时候和天的时候都能一起走过去。

Busy day of work..

Today i wake up at 6:40 and 7 go work... Morning i went to mydin take check and bank in check... This few days i feel tired... Really feel tired... Have to stress in work, house and something pass ago... Haiz... But today i feel happy that i relaize that i listen song i feel happy and i want to start work hard for my future... So need to banting badan... ^^
Last week dont know why got 3 unknown number call me some more is from jb de... 07- hahaha!!! Think too much!! And other 2 is handphone... They ask me is it hui ming? Hahaha! Funny lor... Haiz... Dont care lar...
Today i work frm 7-930 pm damn tired... Bcs of container need to open and i need to place it into the blank place... Finally finish and we go home...  Hahhaa! Reach home i go see her instal and i saw one of the pic is in the genting... I think she went with her bf... Hahaha!!! Thats good... She enjoy in that trips... Yes i feel hurt and jealous when i see the pic... But its okay... Ntg for me... Normal de...
This few days ago i have a lot problem and i am still get headache and i feel that i am weak... But i pray to God help me... I still have my own way to different it.. Means when i work i will throw away other thing... After work only think other things... Thanks God make my mind fresh... Yes i still miss her... But i will try to change my mind that we are friend... Do not be the thirth ppl...
Tmr my mum friend come frm penang she frm indonesian and come here to penang for hospital check up... Tmr she come kl to visit us... So tmr need to go genting... Need to drive... ^^ holiday.... Hehehe...
I tired de... Need sleep... Good night... Have a nice dream...
Anton Winoto.

Monday, September 30, 2013

还是有问题

每个人都有自己的问题。读书时,做工时,单身的,恋爱的,和结婚的。每个都有问题只是我们怎样的面对。有些人说拿得起放得下,这个我不同意。因为这是逃避事情,凡是我们有问题一定要去面对。不管怎样问题要面对。例如读书时,要考试我们怕不及格所以我们要读。工作的问题向同事问题我们要问他到底我做错什么,我们不能这么的放下和不管。一样一对情女也有问题,要双方面对不能不管就这么过的。和结了婚的家庭也要双方面对和平的解决的。我真的要好好的学。和你们也要面对哦,不能去倒逼。
王德秀上

Monday 30/09/2013

Its a monday! And its end of the moneth! Wow! Thats great!!! Bcs go to new month and also get salary! Yuhu!!! Hehhee... Tdy busy of the work... Container come and also the auditor come check our stock... Now i relieze my stock not balance and i feel so,ething wrong with my balance stock... Going to get scold with boss... Hahaha... Haiz... Need to put more effort! Anton jia you! Work time dont think other things! Jia you!!! This your future company so in this piriod need to work hard and handle it and learn frm boss how to do business... ^^
Today i force to wake up early bcs need to do work a lot... But its okay i want to force my self to do job open and close warehouse... Its my responsibility to care warehouse... Yes, my mum wake me up... Need to thanks to my mum everyday wake me up... ^^ i love you mum...
Today brother cant wake up... Dont know what happen with him... Haiz.... Sometimes he sot liao... Haiz... Dont bother him la... Just do my own and dont follow the bads thing... Just remember God's said who feel empty and weak pray to HIM and Jesus will give you streghts and full of joy to whome pray to Jesus...
Today i also make a mistake make my mum scold me... Bank in check and i forget to take out the yellow paper and my mum scold me how to know who give the payment from who? Haiz... I kena marah... Hahhaa... But i accept it and i will try not do same thing....

Anton Winoto...

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难道真的结束了吗?我还是很痛,不能给我个机会吗?真的不爱我了吗?我真的不想失去你!真的我好想你。如果时间能倒流我不想这么做了。我真的很后悔,有这么好的女人不珍惜。难道我现在只是能等她吗?我知道她有男友但我还爱她。这样的感觉您知道吗?我真的无法没有你的日子。我真笨。

Sunday, September 29, 2013

爱情是佛段战?爱情是什么?是讲我爱你三个字吗?或是个承诺?爱一个人很难吗?爱和恨是佛一样这么容易放的下吗?我觉的我的爱情很失败,身旁的人说我很自私。因为他们说我逼人家做不喜欢的事。我这个人是有点硬但是我是嘴硬心软的人。我们的问题是在崇教罢了吗?我觉的你是很安静的人,不太会分享自己的心思给我。而我很多话但没用斗恼去说,儿我也很喜欢开玩笑的人。我总觉得我给你地开玩笑你很少笑,难道是不好笑的吗?我总觉得我不太会给动作对你的爱,但是我真的爱你一个人。我先在很害怕失去你,但也很害怕和你符合。因为我对爱情没有什么经验,我真的不知道我要的是什么。我真的很想和想和她在一起,但我怕你和我不新福儿怕你会辛苦。我真的很怕。
你和我在一起的时候,我感觉到你真的好爱我。我也看到你变了很多,不会无端端的骂人和打我了。我也看到你的脸种满爱和喜乐。我真的很开心,因为那时你变了很多。但现在的你我觉的好可怕,你喜欢晚上去喝酒和喜欢到处出去。或许你要寻找自由吧,但不能喝酒吧。知道酒对人们不好所以少喝吧。我真的怕你变的跟坏。我希望你能对自己好,不要玩了。寻找自己的目标和理想吧。不关现在你还爱不爱我,我希望你新福和快乐。我不希望你伤心。
王德秀上

自己的罪

今天我做错一件事,我真的让神失望。对不起,我会小心。不会在犯了。希望神领导我。阿门。
今天,本来要去打高尔夫球。但有一个帮朋友不能来所以我们取消,儿我去打羽球。不知道今天玩的不好,大多数输。有可能昨天睡四到五个小时,儿今天还去公司做工。真的很累,我还年轻所以我能的。加油德秀。
王德秀上。

Saturday, September 28, 2013

人变或折磨自己?

我觉的我还是一样的我只是没有她的陪伴,所以寂寞和无精打采。是我有点伤心而放不下她,或许我还跟爱她吧。我们虽然分手了但我觉的她变的很多,我害怕是因为我的伤害所以这样的去喝酒吧。我真的想要您和以前一样的快乐和很有爱心的女人,不会伤害自己。不要去跟世界的一样。我们是耶稣的孩子,所以要爱自己和变的更靠近伸。
王德秀上

saturday night Lau's BIrthday

Today Saturday, morning i went to office work until 1 and i go sell empty boxs and some plastic.. then at 2 go play badminton... after badminton i have an idea to celebrate lau's birthday... actually is in badminton court de.. but got few friends cant make it.. so change to dinner... at night lau fetch me to Bukit Jalil Omega Cafe.... we eat and drink.... and not longer Chee Hong wanted to drink beer... mk and lau dont want and i said okay lor lets call... then we call 1 bucket... we call carlsberg for 1 bucket which is 5 small bottles... first i tell mk and lau drink for 1 glass and they said okay lor.... mk just drink one glass bcs he night 12 go club... and lau just drink 1 glass. and others is me and chee hong... the geng is chee hong drink 2 bottle pluss.. and me drink 1 bottle and 1 glass... for me the carlsberg very bitter.. last time i drank with her not so bitter... i thought is carlsberg... hahhaa... its heniken... hahaha... i drink 1 bottle then my heart feel heavy and i go to toilet... my face red!!! wtf!!! hahaha... i feel i dont like drink this already... my body get more weak.... change!!! hahahaha... slowly change... ^^
tomorrow sunday i need to go work at 7 to 10 after that i go church...
now i feel headache... hahaha... okay lah.... todays news until here... want go sleep de....

Good Night... God bless you all...

Anton Winoto

Friday, September 27, 2013

A question frm a friend

I remember that got one friend ask me... Why you believe in Jesus? Why you follow Jesus? Which want you choose betweem Jesus and Eniledgam? I believe in Jesus is because He is alive and love me and care me... He is the true God! Why i follow Jesus? Is it beacuase i frm small i am Christian? The answer is no. First of all I got touch by Jesus.. When i was hate my dad last time and i am really dont like and keep inside my heart... One day our church join the KKR which is a part of praise the God and know more about God... That time the pastor spoke that Jesus said someone here got get hurt and hate by parent... The person is who please come out and lets pray... That time i dont know out of sudden i still blank, i kena pull by someone and the pastor look at me... He start to pray for me... The pastor said Jesus love you son... HE knows you... Then the pastor hug me and out of sudden i cry like a baby... After awhile i am feeling better... I also dont know how come i can cry... Its really God's hand touching me..mso i believe Jesus and Follow Jesus... After this i not feel hurt frm my heart and i feel release my hate to my dad... The last want... Between Jesus and her, yes i love her and i also love Jesus... But i will choose Jesus... Beacuse of Jesus is a God and this is the first place in my heart... The second is her... I can say here is i can die for her... Thats mean she still importand to me... ^^ this make me change a lot and i feel i more love you if you are not mine... I just want you to be happy girl and feel xinfu... Bcs you have your own choice, and i just want to say here you are the first girl in my heart and that only i love... No one can replace it... ^^
Frm:
Anton Winoto

27/09/2013

Today its friday... ^^ still busy whole day... Got a lot to do... Haiz.... What to do? Just make myself busy lor... Bcs i must cut cost... Let company earn more... So can get big bonus next year.... ^^ day by day pass very fast... Tdy i still miss her... I think she go back to jb gua... Bcs last week she said will go back jb on this week.... Hope she safety back jb... Pray for your safety... ^^ still want you be happy o... ^^
Tonight i have badminton... Yeah... Train more will get increase and excersice more will create my body... ^^

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Dad ask

Yesterday after work around 8 pm. My dad mum and me... Want go home and my dad ask me do you dare walk in to the end and come back alone without light? I smile and look at him no... Hahaha... Then i told him yesterday i heart got  a small kid cry... And my dad said sure got de just you believe in God wont heart this silly sound... Hahaha!!! I argue with him said everyone sure can see and heart nt you believe then you wont heard it... Hahaha!! I ask him back pa you dare ma? Hahaha!!!

AntonWinoto

26/09/2013

Wow... Today is thursday... Day by day pass so fast... Now going to entry october... ^^ next month depavaly... Hehehe.... Next monday going to take salary... Wohuuu.... Hehehe... Today meet a guy that made a shirt... Deal for company shirt... First time to deal alone with malay guy... Hahaha... Yes i made it... Do the best... ^^ now suddenly i am thinking of her... How are you? How was your research? Finish? ^^
Okay la write ipuntil here need to do my work...
Antonwinoto ^^

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

today's work.

Today i am tired and wake up late... i reach office at 833am my office started to open at 730 morning to 730 night. yesterday i slept at 2:30A.M and i feel i very tired but i still need to wake up do my job.... yes i am weak but i still need to be strong and do my work... i am leader i do not want let my bottom people look me not good leader... so i need give a smile with them... ^^ today i had scolded by my boss, he said i have something wrong today... in my heart said, wah, my boss can see me.. so geng de... hahhaa... but i said sorry boss... i will do my job properly... i go out do my job and i drive lift truck at inside alone... so i keep doing my work... suddenly my right leg like no feeling and very pain... and i stop down and press my leg... is it i too tired and not enough sleep? or i get whats illness?? omg!! i am scared!! out of sudden my eyes feel pain... i think is it my eyes problem?? i scare my eyes cant see again... if i cant see, who will bring me?? my parent?? yes they will but not for last long... so i dont think too much and keep my body health...
after awhile, suddenly i heard got people crying... i am feel scare!! remember last time i got told in the warehouse light?? wtf!! i am scare... and i keep listen the sound... after 15 secs the sound gone and i see around is it got people?? i see around no one there... haiz... maybe is my xin li zhuo yong bah... or i not enough sleep can heart that sound?? omg omg...
afternoon i go MOD my car, i am prepare to go genting for this friday or saturday mid-night with my few friend for flying car... hahaha... they all use honda CRZ, but me use honda accord old 96... hahhaa... never mind i can follow behind... hehehehe... wanted to put turbo in my honda... but need to spend around rm 13k... wow its too expensive... but for now i am still single i might have saving the account and thinking want to put or not leh?? worth it??

Anton Winoto. ^^

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

回想以前的我们真么在一起

今天,我看你的blog。我觉的你的第一的男友对您很重要,你会想起他。分了一年多你还想着他。我真的很羡慕你这么的爱他这么深。我也看了您的blog,在:

Sunday, November 15, 2009

unlucky

Haiz...really unlucky la...
just now i didn take my key out from the room...
really don know why i forgot la...
shit..but after that can go in le..
that time i suddenly feel like if i have bf beside me then good le...
unfortunately i don have...when i have??my feeling back again...
but i know we are impossible ...haiz...i don know why sometime quite miss you..
can i stop miss you and give up you....i really want to...
if not i will feel very painful....argh..!!!!!!!
when my Mr. Right come??
can i stop think this kind of thing??
study now...don think about this first...

着是你写的,还想着他而你要有男友。在这时候我觉得你接受我是你要有人代替他的位子吧。我希望这是我猜错。

在25日11月,当我说我要停读书。你伤心,我敢到感动。我也努力向自己说要努力读书,为了沈慧雯。爱情会给人们的力量,但不是永远的爱情。是那时我真的要放弃,而你给了我着力量在读书。

考试完了,你想要看newmoon。而我陪你去看和你的朋友。着是我第一次我和你出去,我觉得很开心。我们在一起不久,你要离我大约一个月。你去jb去了,我也想和你去。但我不敢去应为当时我怕父母。我父母不给我去这么远的地方,有可能他们不放心吧。
当你回jb时,我很想你。我也记得我和你学这么做blog。那时我很笨的男人,因为我不是读书的料。我也觉的我拥有他是我的幸福。因为我找到比我崇明的女人。

我还记得在12月,我答应了mr Daniel 服务在晚上。这是我的机会认识大人物,那是TAN SRI JEFFERY CHIA!Sunway OWNER..我那时也在做工,而我申请半天假。在那时,我很想念他。而我想见他一面我很开心,而我去放老师的飞机。当我说我不能来帮忙时,老师很生气。但我不管这么多应为我真的很想念他。那时的我充满了爱情,不顾别的人。而也骗了家人去帮忙但我去jb找他。那时我真怕迷路。那是我第一次我驾的这么远,那时我真的不顾一切的去了。要到他家了,而我没那礼物。我就在附近买并给他们,应为这是我第一次见女友的父母。那时我很紧张,因为我是印尼人。我怕他们不喜欢我。但我已到,我见到他的弟弟JOHN。我看他一直的笑,我也心里开心。那时我觉得他的家人很好,有爱的感觉。真的好喜欢他。吃完了,我们吃水果然后我就回kl了。那时晚上了,而我要驾快车不然来不及回到家。那时一到highway我驾160km/h 因为我觉的我要在十二点回到家。在路途中突然下很大,我还是驾120km/h。不久突然我的车不能被控制,我幸好我来得及刹车。不然我就在医院了。终于到家了,我感动的是他很累但她还不睡等我到家了他才睡。真的越来越爱他, 着是我们第一次为你付出。我也第一次对女友这么疯狂,真的。
对我们走过很多风风雨雨,有难又甜。我们真的有很多对,对方的付出。
而我们也认识对方的父母儿亲起。
这是我和他的过程。
对我是很自私的人,但我是很爱你的。有许多的问题让我感到很伤心。真的很伤,到我现在还怀念你是我的女友。真的好想你,好想和你在一起。
八月的时候,我们见面。我很开心,因为我有勇气的找回你。但当你说你有男友时我的心真的向刀割。很痛,在我23年来这么痛的心。我问自己难道你不这么爱死我的吗?难道这么快有别人了。
我想起你和你第一,你会等待的一年多。而我,短短的这么快的被人代替。真的很痛,对我不是什么好男人。因为我放开你的手。但我也不想的嘛。我也痛苦十个月。在每天的日子我都回想起你。放假时,你这么去TBS?我也不懂。
说来说去,我比现在的他的男友来比。他男友比较帅,崇明,和很多话。
Haiz... I feel so sad... i am really hurt very deep... why can let me hurt until now? is it i need to change? or me and her are different? maybe we are different, different level and different lifestyle bah... Yes, i got try to get back with you. But you really always want to hide me and is it you want forget me? or i am really hurt u so deeply with the words? if i am hurt you by this words.. please let me know how to cover up this hurt... haiz.... yes i might not smart in english.. my english broken and in this world english important.. haiz... i also dont know what i am doing now... i every night have a bad dream which is like ppl chase on me and feel scare.. i cant sleep in this few weeks... to be seriously... i am also lost my strong anton... last time anton... seriously... i still have a lot words need to type here... but i want to stop here... i am really sad and cant stop crying.. 
Anton Winoto..
25/09/2013
12:45AM

24/09/2013

Never blame anyone in you life,
Good people give you Happiness.
Bad people give you Experience.
Worst people give you a Lesson &
Best people give you Memories.

真的决定好了吗?也许是吧。。我会尊重你的选择的!我承认你曾经在我生命里出现过!以前的我,在没有你的时候不能生存!不过现在不同了,我可以活在没有你的时候,这也许是我已经习惯了吧!以前的我太在意感情了,导致我需要时间去恢复我所受的伤!不过我已经痊愈了!有时我偶尔会想起与你在一起的时光,不过那已经是过去了!也许我们做朋友好了!哈哈。。。我会坚强的!你说你不想伤害我?那是真的吗?还有你说你需要自由?难道当时你没有自由吗?哈哈。。让它成我的回忆吧!有时会觉得舍不得,真的!那已经是很久了!或许感情太深了吧!
我的幸福呢??
还久呢。。现在都没有女朋友哪来的幸福呢。。哈哈
唉。。最近我的心真的很痛啊。。。
我不想要那样的心情,可以吗???
我很在意别人说我的,所以每次才会心情差。。
我知道我不是聪明的男人和帅哥。

王德秀上。

爱情

給你一張過去的CD
聽聽那時我們的愛情
有時會突然忘了我還在愛著你

再唱不出那樣的歌曲
聽到都會紅著臉躲避
雖然會經常忘了我依然愛著你

因為愛情 不會輕易悲傷
所以一切都是幸福的模樣
因為愛情 簡單的生長
依然隨時可以為你瘋狂


因為愛情 怎麼會有滄桑
所以我們還是年輕的模樣
因為愛情 在那個地方
依然還有人在那裏遊蕩人來人往

再唱不出那樣的歌曲
聽到都會紅著臉躲避
雖然會經常忘了我依然愛著你

因為愛情 不會輕易悲傷
所以一切都是幸福的模樣
因為愛情 簡單的生長
依然隨時可以為你瘋狂

因為愛情 怎麼會有滄桑
所以我們還是年輕的模樣
因為愛情 在那個地方
依然還有人在那裏遊蕩人來人往

給你一張過去的CD
聽聽那時我們的愛情
有時會突然忘了我還在愛著你

Monday, September 23, 2013

Time

When i love you, you dont love me. When you love me, i dont love you.
When i miss you, you not miss me. When you miss me, i not miss you.
When i trust you, you dont believe me. When you trust me, i dont believe.
When he or she here for you but she or he do not care anout it...
Time is always go, time do not reverse back ... Its might be pass but you must do your best.
We do not regret when its already pass.. I believe you still have the chances to cover back it and do it well..
Do not easy give up when you do anythings and keep trying even through its fail. From the fail we are more get knowlegde and know our weakness.
I am really miss you... I wamt to ask how are you? How was your day? What should i can help you?
When you weak I want to hug you make you strong... I want to be your ears when you need someone to speak. You are always with me... Even though its pass i still always belongs to you and support you... Yes i might not be yours but i will try the best to protect you and keep you safe and healthy... I also dont know why i keep missing her... Maybe we are not strong to face this... But i believe you are happier than last time... I want you to be happy queen.. Even though you not love me or love me... I hope you always smile...  You smile makes your day happy and makes you more pretty... ^^
Anton Winoto

Heaven and Hell

Good Morning,
Yesterday night i was see on my fb and i watch one video which is one of the korea drawer Jesus bring her to see real Hell (neraka) how its was there... When people not believe in Jesus and dont bother what God's says when people in the hell will get punishment... Like people steal things and they will get hurt in the hell.. When we bluff people they will get hurt from the devil they will torment by pin through our body... When we drunk and smoke the snkae will come out from our mouth and more... Thats is what we not obey to Jesus. I just want to say to all the world believe and not believe Jesus please follow HIM, HE is the way to the heaven and pieces... Yes we are not holy and human sure have choice... We can drop into the gap, because the devil want us to follow setan and do not let us follow Jesus to Heaven... Jesus always open up HIS hand for us who willing to follow HIM and HE would forgive those who are really feel guilty and Jesus will forgive us. Merciful Jesus, HE is nringing us to the right path. So people come follow Jesus! Yes we have to gonne through many of challenges and we keep pray to Jesus, HE will give up strength!
Anton Winoto

About myself 2

We in China we also do not think that we can reach China for study... This is from God's way... One thing that i know... My mum and me and my sister keep pray for my dad to believe in Jesus... Finally in 1998 middle of the year he believe in Jesus and his life have changes... He more care about family and house work... Because of indonesian demo we can go to china and learn to speak and write chinese.. And the most importand is my dad believe in Jesus... Thanks God... Everything is good to us... Dont think we have 有困难its bad to us... Its good to us... Some times we have smile and we also have the sadness... We also need to carry our cross everyday to follow Jesus... When we down we pray, HE give us stregth... Jesus wont leave us alone and he will always help HIS child. I know that pray not so fast answer but Jesus want us pray frm our true heart... God's lead us very well in life... He protect us in China... We never get hurt and cheat by friend around us... Really thanks to God... I love you Jesus... I also remember when i in the school got one day they have health for injection... So all student and teacher need to get injection frm doctor... I remember i scare of jarum... So i keep sleeping and do not wan to wake up... Until tell call me and i see the jarum i am shout and start crying... Hahaha! Think of last time i am so funny... A lot ppl laugh at me... 德秀怕打针,爱哭。 hahaha! At the end i dont let them inject my hand... And i remember the teacher call to my parent ask me go to the doctor place to have injection... I remember that time was weekend my mum, brother, sister and i going to the place to inject my hand... Bthat time i go lor... But i keep say i do not want... Around 1 we still cant find the clinic so my mum said dont find already and bring us go play... Like a sunway lagoon but that time entrances is free but when we ride 1 game we need to pay for a head of cost... I had been said my family not rich so that time my mum not enough money and she let 3 of us go play 2 games... I feel my mum love us so much!!! I love you mom! Muackssss.... Now i feel mum love three of of soo much... And i am sure all mother love her child so much because of we all in mother stomact for 9 months... Mother forever love thier son and daugther...
Anton Winoto

Sunday, September 22, 2013

About myself.

About me... My name is Anton Winoto came from Indonesia. I born in Surabaya Indonesia... In 1990 years April 14th morning i was born in this world.. I am a guy... Simple guy.. I like to play around when i am small.. I in Indonesia frm 1990 until 1998.. After that in 1998 to 1999 Feb i at China study. The reason i was in China because of Indonesia had democration so my whole family move to China.. Until 1999 Febuary we whole family holiday to Malaysia and that time my grandmother over my parent to stay in Malaysia.. At that time we have nothing.. My dad told me we are poor.. We have only less than rm12k USD. That money bring use to Malaysia and its not enough for 5 of us... Because of last time do not have airasia so all airplan were high price... That time i was small about 9 years old... I come to Malaysia i was very happy but i miss my time in China... Because of i have likes live in Guang Zhou... There is very kampung but all the people there are friendly.. Doesnt matter is uncle or young man all are very kind to us... I remember i was study in Guang Zhou we start class at 8-4 between that we have a lunch about 45 mins... We can choose to eat in the school or we can go home eat onky come back to school... That time i and my sister in the same school.. We go to school together and go back together... We had a wonderfull time between me and my sister.. Some times we had lunch in the school and some times my sister and i go back to house eat for our dinner... Bcs mum cook for us and my sister warm eat and cook rice and we can eat together... Hehehe... I really miss the time when i was in China... The memory is there... I am really enjoy with my sister the most.. Yes we have argue with her and happy... I also have fun with my brother too... After we end school i and my brother go to play football with the security man and some of the school friends... I remember i am the youngest and i feel they not bully me they encourrage me and treat me as his friend... We in China only for 8 months... Time was pass so fast and we enjoy it... I remember when dinner i and my sis and some times with my brother we three go to pasar buy food for our dinner... I remember we always buy chicken drum stick... Hehehe... I remember we always go to train station buy the small orange.. I remember ¥1.00 for one bag we can eat it full... I am really feel that time was really good... And my parent working some times 7 days aweek. And mostly is 6 days a week.. I remember they work daily from morning until night... When we go school they already go to work... And they need by bus go to thier work place... Some times i go with them... On saturday i go see they work and they bring me there... I remember the boss treat my sister good and my sister want the colour hair and the boss gave to my sister for free.. Wow... I also feel happy that i have this family... Yes my parent work hard for our future... I remember every sunday we have to go church and i remember my mum is the one finding the church where is it... Bcs in China Christian very hard to find... So my mum heard from ppl got near the jing nian da xue... So frm my house to there need to take 45 mins to 1 hour... We need to use by bus and transit 2 bus.. When my parent have to work, we three brother and sister go by ourself... Its really fun and we three close with each other... Yes the church not big as indonesian... But we have find one of the chirts family... We have less than 15 ppls all of them are from Indonesian.. So we have meet our own contry and fellowship... We have great time in China... We have meet our own contry in China,.. We have great time with them too... Yes only once in a week we meet... But we really close with each other... When we want go to Malaysia and need to fen li... We have cry and sadness... Bcs like we are family and want to fen li... Yes we are family... But they still pray to us and bless us for a safety... I am really feel she bu de... I also cry when i fen li with them which mean leave China... I am crying... I feel sad...
Here is my China life...
Anton Winoto

Love

When i am weak you beside me give me streght...
When i am lonely you will be there for me...
When i am no mood you can make me happy because of your face...
When i am no idea you can give me idea to be active...
When i am tired your words make me stronger....
When i am lost you will lead me the way....
When i am hurt, you give me love...
You give me everything... I am the happiness...
But i already hurt you and you had been taken by someone i am really regret... Like i lost my daimond... :(
When i am lost you. i am nothing... I lost my mind, my streght, my confident, my way...
When i am lost you. i am weak, like i cant do anything...
I feel like i do all thing no faith and streght to handle all things...
She make my life happy... Yes we have a lot arguement but its makes me more love you.... But now i cant get back her heart... She had other ppl... I am really sad but i am still love you not bcs your outlook.. Its because of you know me and give me love. You make me to be a muture man...
I am really jealous with other ppl love... Why they can together until old.. Yes a lot ppl get the baby can get her or him... But i cant do this bcs i am respect her and i do not want bcs this make our love is only for playing and let ppl look down... I am a normal ppl... I am a honest ppl... Yes i might stupid ppl ask wat i will reply... Yes i might chong dong de nan ren...
Antonwinoto....

Sunday!

Today i feel happy.. Bcs its Sunday... I go with her... When i reach her house i saw her house want to sell... I am shock. If sell liao where she need to move? I am worry about this... When i wait her in outside... The owner rent the house and rent to her come back frm outside and i go down and ask her. Aunty is it the house wanted to sell? She said the owner want to sell and i said how for the ppl rent the room? The aunty said its okay, they have the contract until next year... I feel relax... I am thinking to buy that house and be the house owner... Yes that a lot of my memory... But i am worker and i might thinking can i buy that house? I try to call the ppl in charces. But they never pick up... Nvm i think if they want to sell around 600k i might can buy it... She come and in the car she silince and keep look at her phone... Yes i am feel happy but i feel that she dont like out with me... But i want her go church... I do not mind she not love me anymore... What can i do is i want her go to church and keep close to her religion... When reach at the place... I go in and listen... The passanger speak to us, we must take God in number one do not let other thing overcome Jesus... He said we cant love money more than Jesus... Bcs Jesus will lead us the good way for us... I learn this and i will remember forgive all to Jesus and love HIM in number one.... For me my church last time and now i go... Its the same thing.. Same thing to speak about God's words... Just we can listen and think to positive... After that we go for lunch... Yeah we have great time... We speak like a close friend... We talk alot and sharing... But i still jealous that she got him... To be honest i still love her... Hope she is happy... And he will give you the best.. But when i ask bout him... Bcs we talk until about him and i am wanted to knw about him and her... She told me that last week her bf came to kl and he stay at her room... In first time i am feel hurt and jealous... But i am telling to myself anton now she is your friend not your gf... Yes i am hurt... After we ate we go back to the car... We got spoken about the pass... I telling her that her friend got find me and ask about her and me.... Yes i am selfish... I am still make a wrong choice and hurt you for few months... Yes he come and raise you up... Maybe he is your 王子。i also got explain to her why i am selfish and why i am say about my goods to other ppl and also bad about her... Not say about bad about you... Is i am hurt bcs i am not give you a deeply love frm me... Yes i might xiao qi in money... This point i am not good in.... I also feel i am 自卑,我不是很好的人。让您伤心,担心和寂寞。i also told her in real life i can see... I and him... He is more better than me... I feel that i am useless like last time i said before... I am nothing.... When i said this out of sudden she cry and i am shock and feel want to hug her... But i am telling myself anton she not yours! She had other ppl! Yes, we are pass but i am still love you the heart... Yeah a lot ppl more pretty and cute... But i love you all! I feel you are pretty, cute, and the most importand is she knows me more than i know myself... And she have a true heart for loving someone... This why i love you... No one can be like you.... Your heart is really i want...

Antonwinoto.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

i thought

in this pic whats the hot?? the black shirt lady... is look similarly to her.. first time i thought is her.. but i look longer is it her? and i said no la her hair is golden.. and this is black and the spec also different... but from beside look like her!!  i thought really her.. hahaha!!! really shock... i keep look at this young lady black shirt... its really look like her.. like last time her that black color hair.. hahahah!!! but now she became beautiful lady... sure a lot boys and men likes her... hope she can really happy with now and God bless you always...

Today i went to Melacca with Lam, we both went there just eat satay culup and go jungle street... hahaha... we had fun and eat a lot of foods... we eat 50 stick... and we use rm 39 for the satay and the drinks... first we want to go satay culup the famous and we look it need to Qiu for 1 hour so we change place but still eat satay... ^^ after that we went to jungle street... Jungle street is like a pasar malam... selling a lots of foods and the items... hehehe... at night we go back to kl... ^^

Anton winoto..

Friday, September 20, 2013

Question mark?

I asking myself... Why people married and divorce can reunion become a husband and wife? Is its thier love still inside? Or the love is big? I am waiting my miricale come over me.... I pray to get back to her... Yes you had been watch movie alone feel lonely... Yes i had been thrue this... I went to melaka alone... I am really sad bcs i am stress and no idea where to go and go go to melacca... First i am thinking of her.. How are you? But i dont dare to ask her... I hurt her heart very deep... But i still go melacca alone... I reach there i dont know where to go... I keep lost way... I remember if she beside me know she will lead me... I feel i am a kids meed people to direct... I just go in malacca for 1 hour then i go back home... I am really very sad why i can happen to me? Haiz..... I feel my love to you nor much and my care and my safety to you and the faith to you less... So thats you let me go easyly... Yes might my fault... I did not give you my big love to you make you love me deeply... Haiz.... I just feel that you are a great gf i had and i want it only..... I still waiting for the time... :)

恋爱

我觉得我不想谈恋爱。要谈一场不分手的恋爱!想和您永不分离。

When i sleep i dreaming

I dreaming that i with her... I thought its a real! We went to lot 10 and we go for a shopping... And i pushing trolly... And out of suddent she pushing with me and i feel happy....when we go see the couple bear shop... She looks one she feel want to buy it... She said this is i want and she said she wanted to give him... Not me... I feel so sad.. And the worker at ther said this model need to wait for a week.. She feel sad and me also sad... She sad she cant buy for him... Me sad bcs i thought she want get back to me... Then we go out frm the shop and shewhole my hands and i dont let whole bcs i said you have him... You dont scare later out of sudden he come find you? And i tell myself do not get into thirt... And she replied wont la... And she said you be my bf for 1 day.... I feel happy but not this i want and reject her... I tell her my heart... I told her yes you are hurt and do not want back to the feeling but you have to choose one of him.. She said she cant back to last time... But she keep thinking of me... And i tell her, i want you be my wife not a status of gf. I am serious if you dont believe lets us go respgister..... She keep thinking and thinking... I say let you think you wan me to be your husband? And i am serious to you not a joke... She quite and thinking.... When we use escalator she told me she wants me back... I feel so happy and we go for a shop.... And i feel xin fu!! So we went for a shop and after we finish walk i said where you wan to go? She said let go other shopping mall... I said okay and i will follow you.. Then i feel happy that i have her... But this is the dream!! When i woke up... Wah liao.... Its a dream... And i woke up ky heart feel more sad.... To be serious... I hurt... Why this is a dream only... And i said if a dream i hope tthis the dream i wont wake up forever! Even thought its in the dream... I am really sad... Haiz.... Nvm... I pray to God. god thank you for new day, thank you for let me in good health....

Feeling to you

I remember i had a dream that you come back frm jb and the bus accident and i was crying and worry about you. I tell myself what happen to you i will still beside you and accompany you until die.. For example that you lost your leg and i will be your leg, if you lost your eyes i will be your eyes... This wat i am promise..... At the end i know that you was go to heaven... I feel damn sad and i am crying until infront of your parent... And i tell them i will always love you forever i wont get other girl replace me... When i wake up my tears was drop and sms to you dear i love you forever.... I feel i cant lost you... Because i am a normal ppl and i feel i can let you happy... Yes i know now we are not but i can say is i will always wait you... No matter 1 month, 1 year, 10 years... I will wait you.... Yes you cant get back to pass as a boyfriend... I want you to be my wife! This is i am serious.... But for now i cant get you... So i will wait you eniledgam. ^^
Anton winoto simple person... ^^

Me

I wish that you in kl i can protect you... Yes just for 2 sems... I hope you let me to be your shoulder... After that you go jb you will with him... Yes i know you have bf i do not want disturb but i am still love you.. I wan to protect you in kl... Just send you to church every sunday.... Like this i already happy.... Seriously... Yes you told me you can get her or his humanility but you cant get his or her heart... But i can tell you my heart just only have you.... But now you have a bf i just can beside to help you and make sure you are happy and safety in kl... This is what i want to do and this make me happy already... Yes we cant go back like last time... But i can tell you that i will always wait you.... This is my promise to you.... And i promise now i wont disturb you and him... Let time pass and see whether i have chance? I just can wait... Wait... And wait.... Hope thats my heart person will know and forgive me everything and lets start new... I will always wait you~
Antonwinoto....

回忆

对我是很自私的人当我没有比你不会去jb,而我每次都会送您去tbs巴士。我也放弃我初步的工为了您。不关真样我是很爱你的。对我给您choice,我也不希望您和我分手。我也很狠我自己,而我也感觉到我不是很好的男人。我没有给你要的东西,让你牵就我。我真的很痛,我没次都在家很少出去。我觉得我没您讲的这么好。但我希望能有您背叛我下辈子。真的,没有你我真的不要别的女人。我王德秀不帅但我只有一颗小小的心给您。我也很后悔着几天让您多伤心,对我很自私。但我很想很想和您在一起。对现在您忙的您的功课,而我不能帮上什么忙。但我只能为您打包饭盒让您不饿。这是我的心对您。我不要求多,因为我也知道您有男友。我不应该打扰,但我不能控制自己。应该我太爱你。我真的很想带给您新福和安全感。我会永远的爱您一个人。不管您在天海海角我会爱您。永远不会忘记。我会一直等您到您原谅我。我相信爱是那么的原谅和相爱。
对我自己也想过,现在她的男友对她好又是搭背她。我也想放弃,但我不知道为什么我还那么的爱他。或许我的心只有她吧。我王德秀永远爱您!
王德秀上

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Nice words

Sweet... I love these.... I hope i can find you... ^^

爱情

爱是什么?我昨天想了又想真爱是真样?爱一个人能让她一辈子爱你吗?爱受到伤害她还会等您吗?我觉得爱一个人很新福。爱一个人不管她或他这么样都会接受所有的事。我也看到一些的朋友们姐胡恩很恩爱,不管有钱货平穷。他们重拾要对方的支持和信心。不管对方怎样不能两人一起吵架。我很羡慕人们的爱情这么的恩爱。说为的我们要看自己才能给另一半新福
王德秀上。

Instalmag

I read ppl msg... In instalmag... I saw a girl married with a guy... And they have one daughter and they happy... They trust each other and believe and some more deeply....
She wrote these : LOVE isn't all about flirting, hugs,kisses, abd sex. LOVE is about having the ability to take all those things away and still having feeling for that person. I agree with this! Its make a marry success.... ^^ feel like i going to marry... Hahaha!!! Funny eh me...
Okay, lets sleep....
Nights... Good night anton....
Antonwinoto

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

End the world

This morning, we have company meeting. At the start the meeting out of suddent my tears come out.... Yes i stil cant take it to me... I blame myself whats wrong? Yes i think a whole nights and chat with one of her friend.... Yeah i might selfish... I that night think a lot and think why i could do this? Now i lost her and friends.... Is it that i want? Haiz.... I am very 冲动的人。yes i got hurt by saying... So sorry... Awhile we meeting i suddently cry out... I dont know what happen.... Yes i might miss her... But when meeting start i am silince and talk about purchasing... We have argue between it... I keep silince and keep thinking of her... I crying... I went out for a toilet... I keep say to myself stop crying anton... Its over.... She had him.... I no value in her heart.... I just dont knw why i keep crying.... I whipp all my tears and i come in the office back for meeting... But i also dont knw why i keep drop my tears and i turn to back take tissue.... Maybe they saw it... But i do not want them to know.... So i keep myself strong... Do not cry... But i tell myself no her still have others.... But go thrue purchasing... They are arguing and i feel more sad and crying... My family member also broken... I say in my heart... Dear lord why can happpen it to me? Why you give me this hurt..... I am complaining i in this world for wat? I feel want to die and all thing no need to worry about... End of the meeting one of the purchasing staf which my brother will leave the company amd i dont know i feel hurt.... Haiz.... I also dont know why all these thing can come in time and make me very sad....haiz.. Nvm ba... I want to tell my bos if the purchasing no one i willing to take the possition go to china... I want to get new life.... I cant take this all... I do not want care about her any more and my family too... I am already sad and give up... I will happy with my own life... Be happy anton and later need to have meeting with transport gm... Jia you anton!
Anton, Jesus love you.... ^^ muacksss....
Anton winotot

Here i am want to say sorry...

I feel so sorry to say about last night, i am here to oppology to you that i said not good to you and i am here to wish you happy with whatever who you with..... I wish now u and ivan happy... I wont disturb you and him.... Jesus love you and him....
Anton

I am really very sad...

This is what i am sad and tdy i have seen her.... I am very disappointed to her... What she wrote in here just for a few days she get a new relationship... Yeah cant say is her fault bcs of me i hurt her.... She love me a lots and a lot memory.... But one of the sentence make us forever cant get back.... Haiz..... Why should this happen leh? I prefer not to be your bf  and i get hurt the pain until now... Is 10 months! But she get new bf! For me its so fast she can have a partner! Yes i am really hurt and pain! My ex get new bf! Why make this happen? I am really want to get back and she keep hurt me with her qi hua! Yes i told her i HATE IVAN GOH! I will remember his name and hate him! He can change my position within few months! Its amazinng guy! Or maybe she really get easy into new love? From this lesson i feel in this world no true love! I am the first gf that i had for 3years plus and just for few months know him and together! This is what the fuck you want!!! I already do what you still cant give me? You said you wan malaysian guy and jb and thats its? Its a bullshit! Like this i can change for you but you said imposible that get back to me! This really hurt for me... I get know a lot thing is bcs her.... I know iphone... I know blogs... I know placeses.... Just bcs of ivan my life is gone and she has ivan and happy! I am really dont knw what i should do? Bless them?.. Broke them? Or just leave? Haiz.... I feel this blog just let her see or maybe my brother will see this ba.... I feel i wan to stop this blogs and do whatever i want and keep my feeling in my heart bah.... I am really hurt of the words of LOVE! And the most of the feeling is gone! Cant sleep, cant work, cant eat, cant do well... And more... Its to scary to be love! I am fucking serious i want to tell the whole world that love not true!!! Only money can make it true!!!!
Anton winoto

Repost i hope tou will read this...frm my heart


第一天见到您的时候,我觉的你是我的天使。我觉得你是很特别的女人。第二次我们见面,我们在电梯里。我觉的你在看我,但我心里面说不可能啦,我这么肥又不帅。回家的时候,我感到很累。晚上得时后,我一打开facebook有新的人加我。我一看是她!我感到开心。不知道为什么对她有特别的感觉。然后我们在哪聊天,不知不觉的我们当朋友。当我第一次约她去喝。我干儿很开心,我们在mamak喝。不知不觉的我们很有话题呢。呵呵呵。当我们认识两个多礼拜我决定要去问她到底喜欢我吗?长话短说,我们在一起。我们的第一次约会是在sunwaypyramid吃台湾小吃。然后我们一起去找个像做个纪念,当我们要拍我们不懂这么拍而我架架的要亲她的指示,但她以为我要吻她呢。哈哈哈哈!。那时我很开心的不得了。我们很恩爱。而这是我真的找到我的真爱。她很可爱又很白。我觉得很开心。我们第一次亲是在1utama。我不敢直接的吻,而我去问她能不能吻你。哈哈哈我真是怕道。。
我们一起的日字没那么的长但我觉得很开心。我会得到这么美的女友。我还记得我们很多苦的日子,当你还没忘记您前男友,我觉的我没用。不能让你的到我的心。我也努力让你开心。日子过了她能把他忘了而只有我的心在她心里面。
有一天她突然和我说他对不起我,她一边说一边哭。那时我拥抱他和给他我得见旁。他说我不是好女友。长话短说,我和她说那是以前。我不介意您的过去。现在的您我喜欢。我不管以前你是这样的。
我很伤害她的心。因为我做对不起她的事,我怕她离我而去。我真的很怕。但我下定决心要和她唐白。因为两人在一起一定要讲实话和没有秘密。
我们真的度过很多的风风雨雨我们一起度过。一起读书一起做工。我真的把你当我的老婆。但我做了不对的路和伤害了你的心。haiz。如果能重来我不会在次的伤害你。我现在不想你和别的男人。但我没有那个权利住址您。haiz,我觉的我整个人懂!对很多人说你爱的人不和你在一起没关系只要她新福就好。我真的放不下她。您真的心福吗?我想您应该很开心和您爱人。我真的不想伤害你,我也很懂。我都不敢对别的女人爱。因为我的心只有您!
我爱你!我也希望你得到你新福。如不是我是你的心福那我放手吧。我真的很后悔。
我也知道我不是好人,没有什么文平。而您是大学生,我不赔她吧。现在你有背叛和又有学文。好吧!加油!我永远的爱你!
王德秀上。

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Early in the morning feeli

I feel that i am fail in my previos relationship.... And i do not dare to get into new relationship... I do not want get hurt and hurt ppl too... I just feel that i am weak when i do not with you..... I feel not like last time have the power of stregth to do all my thing... I not help house clean, lazy to wash own car and my room was messy... Is it LOVE is a big change? Make someone to have stregth to do all this? I feel its yes if you fall in love with someone how tired you are and when you meet him or her you will full energy... ^^ i also dont know when can i come back to my old anton to be strong do not be lazy ne? Just feel that i am a fool why i let her go? Yeah its good to let her go... Now she became more muture and pretty than last time.... She is a better person....^^ good to see her muture and i am the one still in the old house do not see the outside world.... What am i doing? Like one of my friend his's gf broke up with him and they still friend can go out eat and find each other but my friend he found a new gf which is 2 months later. He change a lot... He more knw friends and find the romantic places... Is it this the love can make you more better?? I feel i cant... Bcs i am not a simple or simply person.... Yes i had speak we break up but i am just want you.... The only you.... I dont dare to get back with you until now we had meet for the first time.... I look u different and i feel that you like a eagle flying in the sky and me like stil in the egg havent come out.... Hahaha..... Okay la... Say until here i need to do my work...

Anton winoto

My Job

Hello, its me... i just back from work and had my bathe....
today i am really tired because of the work... especially when staff MC i need to go do by myself... today come 1 container and we 3 person open 1 container within 3 hours.. and i still sick and i keep myself to do it faster... finally finish open the container and i go back to my office and i have my drink... after that i need to check up my quantity of the item... so i go check and re-put nicely to the racking... around 7 PM. i  and my staff doing work out of sudden the warehouse light switch on and off. i shout and said hello anyone there?? and no one replied me.. and few second the other light switch on and off automatically... i call my staff to follow me go and see... to be honest, i am scare at that time... but i just pray in my heart for a save.. reach there i look no one is there and i see the switch okay no problem... i just said thanks God... my mum also follow behind me and my dad too...

Monday, September 16, 2013

对不起

我感觉到以前我对你老实要求这和哪,但你的要求我并没有那么的放在心。真的谢谢您。我觉得我不是和你。我觉得自己很自私,不顾您的感受。我王德秀对不起您。我还记得那是您叫我带落石我每次忘记带,哈哈哈。着是我的缺点。对不起。
^_^

Now i know

I remember why last time my brother keep sleeping... I think i have get same feeling with him... Broken heart.... Its really hurt.... When you sleep u wont think about it... And want keep sleep forever... I just nw at office i am really tired and feel unhappy then i go to my office just lying on the floor and sleep... I sleep until 1 hour and my dad wake me up and i keep feeling do not want to wale up... When i woke up i am really feel empty... Like u in the mountain a lot of tree and no one it there... I keep silince dont knw why i do not feel wan to talk... My dad keep saying about me and i just silince and do not want to talk... Am i really change? Am i really happy with this? Am i really gila? Haiz.... How gone thru this? I am really get the pain very deep... Now i am 23 years old... I seriously get very deeply hurt by this relationship... Pass time i hurt bcs of i fail my subject, cant go out with friends, cant buy my games. Now i am really pain for few months.... But this month really really very very serious to me.... I like crying everyday until my yan lei mei le... What i am really want ne? A partner to keep me happy? A future wife? Haiz.... I also want get back my strong anton! Now my mum get sick and i cant feel down and let them worry about me.... Yeah i not cry infront of them... But i might know that i have a problem with mag.... My mum ask me hw was her? I said she was good... My mum asked me is it you want get back with her? I silence and think should i tell my mum she already had bf? At the end i just told my mum that she already had a partner and her bf in jb... When i said this i feel hurt... Dont know why? Is it i am still love her? Or jealous?
I hope that i can close my eyes and do not open back my eyes until the hurt hilang... Or Jesus bring me to your heaven let me see there and the hell how its look likes? Now out of sudden, i feel that human in the world just few years after we die we just have two way to go which is heaven or hell. If we are follow by Jesus, HE will lead us to the true of the way to the Heaven! If we do not listen and obey HIM and follow the world we will get the punishment! Which want we want to choose? After we have leave the world we will forget who is your wife husband child and friends! So lets praise to the Lord to the King of King name JESUS!!!

Now i am feeling better... I just feel to let go and give her a bless and pray her to get happiness and wanted to let her must keep going to church and do not leave our God name JESUS!

Antonwinoto brother!