还是有问题

每个人都有自己的问题。读书时，做工时，单身的，恋爱的，和结婚的。每个都有问题只是我们怎样的面对。有些人说拿得起放得下，这个我不同意。因为这是逃避事情，凡是我们有问题一定要去面对。不管怎样问题要面对。例如读书时，要考试我们怕不及格所以我们要读。工作的问题向同事问题我们要问他到底我做错什么，我们不能这么的放下和不管。一样一对情女也有问题，要双方面对不能不管就这么过的。和结了婚的家庭也要双方面对和平的解决的。我真的要好好的学。和你们也要面对哦，不能去倒逼。
王德秀上

Monday 30/09/2013

Its a monday! And its end of the moneth! Wow! Thats great!!! Bcs go to new month and also get salary! Yuhu!!! Hehhee... Tdy busy of the work... Container come and also the auditor come check our stock... Now i relieze my stock not balance and i feel so,ething wrong with my balance stock... Going to get scold with boss... Hahaha... Haiz... Need to put more effort! Anton jia you! Work time dont think other things! Jia you!!! This your future company so in this piriod need to work hard and handle it and learn frm boss how to do business... ^^
Today i force to wake up early bcs need to do work a lot... But its okay i want to force my self to do job open and close warehouse... Its my responsibility to care warehouse... Yes, my mum wake me up... Need to thanks to my mum everyday wake me up... ^^ i love you mum...
Today brother cant wake up... Dont know what happen with him... Haiz.... Sometimes he sot liao... Haiz... Dont bother him la... Just do my own and dont follow the bads thing... Just remember God's said who feel empty and weak pray to HIM and Jesus will give you streghts and full of joy to whome pray to Jesus...
Today i also make a mistake make my mum scold me... Bank in check and i forget to take out the yellow paper and my mum scold me how to know who give the payment from who? Haiz... I kena marah... Hahhaa... But i accept it and i will try not do same thing....

Anton Winoto...

....

难道真的结束了吗？我还是很痛，不能给我个机会吗？真的不爱我了吗？我真的不想失去你！真的我好想你。如果时间能倒流我不想这么做了。我真的很后悔，有这么好的女人不珍惜。难道我现在只是能等她吗？我知道她有男友但我还爱她。这样的感觉您知道吗？我真的无法没有你的日子。我真笨。

爱

爱情是佛段战？爱情是什么？是讲我爱你三个字吗？或是个承诺？爱一个人很难吗？爱和恨是佛一样这么容易放的下吗？我觉的我的爱情很失败，身旁的人说我很自私。因为他们说我逼人家做不喜欢的事。我这个人是有点硬但是我是嘴硬心软的人。我们的问题是在崇教罢了吗？我觉的你是很安静的人，不太会分享自己的心思给我。而我很多话但没用斗恼去说，儿我也很喜欢开玩笑的人。我总觉得我给你地开玩笑你很少笑，难道是不好笑的吗？我总觉得我不太会给动作对你的爱，但是我真的爱你一个人。我先在很害怕失去你，但也很害怕和你符合。因为我对爱情没有什么经验，我真的不知道我要的是什么。我真的很想和想和她在一起，但我怕你和我不新福儿怕你会辛苦。我真的很怕。
你和我在一起的时候，我感觉到你真的好爱我。我也看到你变了很多，不会无端端的骂人和打我了。我也看到你的脸种满爱和喜乐。我真的很开心，因为那时你变了很多。但现在的你我觉的好可怕，你喜欢晚上去喝酒和喜欢到处出去。或许你要寻找自由吧，但不能喝酒吧。知道酒对人们不好所以少喝吧。我真的怕你变的跟坏。我希望你能对自己好，不要玩了。寻找自己的目标和理想吧。不关现在你还爱不爱我，我希望你新福和快乐。我不希望你伤心。
王德秀上

自己的罪

今天我做错一件事，我真的让神失望。对不起，我会小心。不会在犯了。希望神领导我。阿门。
今天，本来要去打高尔夫球。但有一个帮朋友不能来所以我们取消，儿我去打羽球。不知道今天玩的不好，大多数输。有可能昨天睡四到五个小时，儿今天还去公司做工。真的很累，我还年轻所以我能的。加油德秀。
王德秀上。

人变或折磨自己？

我觉的我还是一样的我只是没有她的陪伴，所以寂寞和无精打采。是我有点伤心而放不下她，或许我还跟爱她吧。我们虽然分手了但我觉的她变的很多，我害怕是因为我的伤害所以这样的去喝酒吧。我真的想要您和以前一样的快乐和很有爱心的女人，不会伤害自己。不要去跟世界的一样。我们是耶稣的孩子，所以要爱自己和变的更靠近伸。
王德秀上

saturday night Lau's BIrthday

Today Saturday, morning i went to office work until 1 and i go sell empty boxs and some plastic.. then at 2 go play badminton... after badminton i have an idea to celebrate lau's birthday... actually is in badminton court de.. but got few friends cant make it.. so change to dinner... at night lau fetch me to Bukit Jalil Omega Cafe.... we eat and drink.... and not longer Chee Hong wanted to drink beer... mk and lau dont want and i said okay lor lets call... then we call 1 bucket... we call carlsberg for 1 bucket which is 5 small bottles... first i tell mk and lau drink for 1 glass and they said okay lor.... mk just drink one glass bcs he night 12 go club... and lau just drink 1 glass. and others is me and chee hong... the geng is chee hong drink 2 bottle pluss.. and me drink 1 bottle and 1 glass... for me the carlsberg very bitter.. last time i drank with her not so bitter... i thought is carlsberg... hahhaa... its heniken... hahaha... i drink 1 bottle then my heart feel heavy and i go to toilet... my face red!!! wtf!!! hahaha... i feel i dont like drink this already... my body get more weak.... change!!! hahahaha... slowly change... ^^
tomorrow sunday i need to go work at 7 to 10 after that i go church...
now i feel headache... hahaha... okay lah.... todays news until here... want go sleep de....

Good Night... God bless you all...

Anton Winoto

A question frm a friend

I remember that got one friend ask me... Why you believe in Jesus? Why you follow Jesus? Which want you choose betweem Jesus and Eniledgam? I believe in Jesus is because He is alive and love me and care me... He is the true God! Why i follow Jesus? Is it beacuase i frm small i am Christian? The answer is no. First of all I got touch by Jesus.. When i was hate my dad last time and i am really dont like and keep inside my heart... One day our church join the KKR which is a part of praise the God and know more about God... That time the pastor spoke that Jesus said someone here got get hurt and hate by parent... The person is who please come out and lets pray... That time i dont know out of sudden i still blank, i kena pull by someone and the pastor look at me... He start to pray for me... The pastor said Jesus love you son... HE knows you... Then the pastor hug me and out of sudden i cry like a baby... After awhile i am feeling better... I also dont know how come i can cry... Its really God's hand touching me..mso i believe Jesus and Follow Jesus... After this i not feel hurt frm my heart and i feel release my hate to my dad... The last want... Between Jesus and her, yes i love her and i also love Jesus... But i will choose Jesus... Beacuse of Jesus is a God and this is the first place in my heart... The second is her... I can say here is i can die for her... Thats mean she still importand to me... ^^ this make me change a lot and i feel i more love you if you are not mine... I just want you to be happy girl and feel xinfu... Bcs you have your own choice, and i just want to say here you are the first girl in my heart and that only i love... No one can replace it... ^^
Frm:
Anton Winoto

27/09/2013

Today its friday... ^^ still busy whole day... Got a lot to do... Haiz.... What to do? Just make myself busy lor... Bcs i must cut cost... Let company earn more... So can get big bonus next year.... ^^ day by day pass very fast... Tdy i still miss her... I think she go back to jb gua... Bcs last week she said will go back jb on this week.... Hope she safety back jb... Pray for your safety... ^^ still want you be happy o... ^^
Tonight i have badminton... Yeah... Train more will get increase and excersice more will create my body... ^^

Dad ask

Yesterday after work around 8 pm. My dad mum and me... Want go home and my dad ask me do you dare walk in to the end and come back alone without light? I smile and look at him no... Hahaha... Then i told him yesterday i heart got  a small kid cry... And my dad said sure got de just you believe in God wont heart this silly sound... Hahaha!!! I argue with him said everyone sure can see and heart nt you believe then you wont heard it... Hahaha!! I ask him back pa you dare ma? Hahaha!!!

AntonWinoto

26/09/2013

Wow... Today is thursday... Day by day pass so fast... Now going to entry october... ^^ next month depavaly... Hehehe.... Next monday going to take salary... Wohuuu.... Hehehe... Today meet a guy that made a shirt... Deal for company shirt... First time to deal alone with malay guy... Hahaha... Yes i made it... Do the best... ^^ now suddenly i am thinking of her... How are you? How was your research? Finish? ^^
Okay la write ipuntil here need to do my work...
Antonwinoto ^^

today's work.

Today i am tired and wake up late... i reach office at 833am my office started to open at 730 morning to 730 night. yesterday i slept at 2:30A.M and i feel i very tired but i still need to wake up do my job.... yes i am weak but i still need to be strong and do my work... i am leader i do not want let my bottom people look me not good leader... so i need give a smile with them... ^^ today i had scolded by my boss, he said i have something wrong today... in my heart said, wah, my boss can see me.. so geng de... hahhaa... but i said sorry boss... i will do my job properly... i go out do my job and i drive lift truck at inside alone... so i keep doing my work... suddenly my right leg like no feeling and very pain... and i stop down and press my leg... is it i too tired and not enough sleep? or i get whats illness?? omg!! i am scared!! out of sudden my eyes feel pain... i think is it my eyes problem?? i scare my eyes cant see again... if i cant see, who will bring me?? my parent?? yes they will but not for last long... so i dont think too much and keep my body health...
after awhile, suddenly i heard got people crying... i am feel scare!! remember last time i got told in the warehouse light?? wtf!! i am scare... and i keep listen the sound... after 15 secs the sound gone and i see around is it got people?? i see around no one there... haiz... maybe is my xin li zhuo yong bah... or i not enough sleep can heart that sound?? omg omg...
afternoon i go MOD my car, i am prepare to go genting for this friday or saturday mid-night with my few friend for flying car... hahaha... they all use honda CRZ, but me use honda accord old 96... hahhaa... never mind i can follow behind... hehehehe... wanted to put turbo in my honda... but need to spend around rm 13k... wow its too expensive... but for now i am still single i might have saving the account and thinking want to put or not leh?? worth it??

Anton Winoto. ^^

回想以前的我们真么在一起

今天，我看你的blog。我觉的你的第一的男友对您很重要，你会想起他。分了一年多你还想着他。我真的很羡慕你这么的爱他这么深。我也看了您的blog，在：

Sunday, November 15, 2009

unlucky

Haiz...really unlucky la...
just now i didn take my key out from the room...
really don know why i forgot la...
shit..but after that can go in le..
that time i suddenly feel like if i have bf beside me then good le...
unfortunately i don have...when i have??my feeling back again...
but i know we are impossible ...haiz...i don know why sometime quite miss you..
can i stop miss you and give up you....i really want to...
if not i will feel very painful....argh..!!!!!!!
when my Mr. Right come??
can i stop think this kind of thing??
study now...don think about this first...

着是你写的，还想着他而你要有男友。在这时候我觉得你接受我是你要有人代替他的位子吧。我希望这是我猜错。

在25日11月，当我说我要停读书。你伤心，我敢到感动。我也努力向自己说要努力读书，为了沈慧雯。爱情会给人们的力量，但不是永远的爱情。是那时我真的要放弃，而你给了我着力量在读书。

考试完了，你想要看newmoon。而我陪你去看和你的朋友。着是我第一次我和你出去，我觉得很开心。我们在一起不久，你要离我大约一个月。你去jb去了，我也想和你去。但我不敢去应为当时我怕父母。我父母不给我去这么远的地方，有可能他们不放心吧。

当你回jb时，我很想你。我也记得我和你学这么做blog。那时我很笨的男人，因为我不是读书的料。我也觉的我拥有他是我的幸福。因为我找到比我崇明的女人。

我还记得在12月，我答应了mr Daniel 服务在晚上。这是我的机会认识大人物，那是TAN　ＳＲＩ　ＪＥＦＦＥＲＹ　ＣＨＩＡ！Ｓｕｎｗａｙ　OWNER..我那时也在做工，而我申请半天假。在那时，我很想念他。而我想见他一面我很开心，而我去放老师的飞机。当我说我不能来帮忙时，老师很生气。但我不管这么多应为我真的很想念他。那时的我充满了爱情，不顾别的人。而也骗了家人去帮忙但我去jb找他。那时我真怕迷路。那是我第一次我驾的这么远，那时我真的不顾一切的去了。要到他家了，而我没那礼物。我就在附近买并给他们，应为这是我第一次见女友的父母。那时我很紧张，因为我是印尼人。我怕他们不喜欢我。但我已到，我见到他的弟弟JOHN。我看他一直的笑，我也心里开心。那时我觉得他的家人很好，有爱的感觉。真的好喜欢他。吃完了，我们吃水果然后我就回kl了。那时晚上了，而我要驾快车不然来不及回到家。那时一到highway我驾160km/h 因为我觉的我要在十二点回到家。在路途中突然下很大，我还是驾120km/h。不久突然我的车不能被控制，我幸好我来得及刹车。不然我就在医院了。终于到家了，我感动的是他很累但她还不睡等我到家了他才睡。真的越来越爱他， 着是我们第一次为你付出。我也第一次对女友这么疯狂，真的。

对我们走过很多风风雨雨，有难又甜。我们真的有很多对，对方的付出。

而我们也认识对方的父母儿亲起。

这是我和他的过程。

对我是很自私的人，但我是很爱你的。有许多的问题让我感到很伤心。真的很伤，到我现在还怀念你是我的女友。真的好想你，好想和你在一起。

八月的时候，我们见面。我很开心，因为我有勇气的找回你。但当你说你有男友时我的心真的向刀割。很痛，在我23年来这么痛的心。我问自己难道你不这么爱死我的吗？难道这么快有别人了。

我想起你和你第一，你会等待的一年多。而我，短短的这么快的被人代替。真的很痛，对我不是什么好男人。因为我放开你的手。但我也不想的嘛。我也痛苦十个月。在每天的日子我都回想起你。放假时，你这么去TBS?我也不懂。

说来说去，我比现在的他的男友来比。他男友比较帅，崇明，和很多话。

Haiz... I feel so sad... i am really hurt very deep... why can let me hurt until now? is it i need to change? or me and her are different? maybe we are different, different level and different lifestyle bah... Yes, i got try to get back with you. But you really always want to hide me and is it you want forget me? or i am really hurt u so deeply with the words? if i am hurt you by this words.. please let me know how to cover up this hurt... haiz.... yes i might not smart in english.. my english broken and in this world english important.. haiz... i also dont know what i am doing now... i every night have a bad dream which is like ppl chase on me and feel scare.. i cant sleep in this few weeks... to be seriously... i am also lost my strong anton... last time anton... seriously... i still have a lot words need to type here... but i want to stop here... i am really sad and cant stop crying.. 

Anton Winoto..

25/09/2013

12:45AM

24/09/2013

Never blame anyone in you life,
Good people give you Happiness.
Bad people give you Experience.
Worst people give you a Lesson &
Best people give you Memories.

真的决定好了吗？也许是吧。。我会尊重你的选择的！我承认你曾经在我生命里出现过！以前的我，在没有你的时候不能生存！不过现在不同了，我可以活在没有你的时候，这也许是我已经习惯了吧！以前的我太在意感情了，导致我需要时间去恢复我所受的伤！不过我已经痊愈了！有时我偶尔会想起与你在一起的时光，不过那已经是过去了！也许我们做朋友好了！哈哈。。。我会坚强的！你说你不想伤害我？那是真的吗?还有你说你需要自由？难道当时你没有自由吗?哈哈。。让它成我的回忆吧！有时会觉得舍不得，真的！那已经是很久了！或许感情太深了吧！
我的幸福呢？？
还久呢。。现在都没有女朋友哪来的幸福呢。。哈哈
唉。。最近我的心真的很痛啊。。。
我不想要那样的心情，可以吗？？？
我很在意别人说我的，所以每次才会心情差。。
我知道我不是聪明的男人和帅哥。

王德秀上。

爱情

給你一張過去的CD
聽聽那時我們的愛情
有時會突然忘了我還在愛著你

再唱不出那樣的歌曲
聽到都會紅著臉躲避
雖然會經常忘了我依然愛著你

因為愛情 不會輕易悲傷
所以一切都是幸福的模樣
因為愛情 簡單的生長
依然隨時可以為你瘋狂

因為愛情 怎麼會有滄桑
所以我們還是年輕的模樣
因為愛情 在那個地方
依然還有人在那裏遊蕩人來人往

再唱不出那樣的歌曲
聽到都會紅著臉躲避
雖然會經常忘了我依然愛著你

因為愛情 不會輕易悲傷
所以一切都是幸福的模樣
因為愛情 簡單的生長
依然隨時可以為你瘋狂

因為愛情 怎麼會有滄桑
所以我們還是年輕的模樣
因為愛情 在那個地方
依然還有人在那裏遊蕩人來人往

給你一張過去的CD
聽聽那時我們的愛情
有時會突然忘了我還在愛著你

Time

When i love you, you dont love me. When you love me, i dont love you.
When i miss you, you not miss me. When you miss me, i not miss you.
When i trust you, you dont believe me. When you trust me, i dont believe.
When he or she here for you but she or he do not care anout it...
Time is always go, time do not reverse back ... Its might be pass but you must do your best.
We do not regret when its already pass.. I believe you still have the chances to cover back it and do it well..
Do not easy give up when you do anythings and keep trying even through its fail. From the fail we are more get knowlegde and know our weakness.
I am really miss you... I wamt to ask how are you? How was your day? What should i can help you?
When you weak I want to hug you make you strong... I want to be your ears when you need someone to speak. You are always with me... Even though its pass i still always belongs to you and support you... Yes i might not be yours but i will try the best to protect you and keep you safe and healthy... I also dont know why i keep missing her... Maybe we are not strong to face this... But i believe you are happier than last time... I want you to be happy queen.. Even though you not love me or love me... I hope you always smile...  You smile makes your day happy and makes you more pretty... ^^
Anton Winoto

Heaven and Hell

Good Morning,
Yesterday night i was see on my fb and i watch one video which is one of the korea drawer Jesus bring her to see real Hell (neraka) how its was there... When people not believe in Jesus and dont bother what God's says when people in the hell will get punishment... Like people steal things and they will get hurt in the hell.. When we bluff people they will get hurt from the devil they will torment by pin through our body... When we drunk and smoke the snkae will come out from our mouth and more... Thats is what we not obey to Jesus. I just want to say to all the world believe and not believe Jesus please follow HIM, HE is the way to the heaven and pieces... Yes we are not holy and human sure have choice... We can drop into the gap, because the devil want us to follow setan and do not let us follow Jesus to Heaven... Jesus always open up HIS hand for us who willing to follow HIM and HE would forgive those who are really feel guilty and Jesus will forgive us. Merciful Jesus, HE is nringing us to the right path. So people come follow Jesus! Yes we have to gonne through many of challenges and we keep pray to Jesus, HE will give up strength!
Anton Winoto

About myself 2

We in China we also do not think that we can reach China for study... This is from God's way... One thing that i know... My mum and me and my sister keep pray for my dad to believe in Jesus... Finally in 1998 middle of the year he believe in Jesus and his life have changes... He more care about family and house work... Because of indonesian demo we can go to china and learn to speak and write chinese.. And the most importand is my dad believe in Jesus... Thanks God... Everything is good to us... Dont think we have 有困难its bad to us... Its good to us... Some times we have smile and we also have the sadness... We also need to carry our cross everyday to follow Jesus... When we down we pray, HE give us stregth... Jesus wont leave us alone and he will always help HIS child. I know that pray not so fast answer but Jesus want us pray frm our true heart... God's lead us very well in life... He protect us in China... We never get hurt and cheat by friend around us... Really thanks to God... I love you Jesus... I also remember when i in the school got one day they have health for injection... So all student and teacher need to get injection frm doctor... I remember i scare of jarum... So i keep sleeping and do not wan to wake up... Until tell call me and i see the jarum i am shout and start crying... Hahaha! Think of last time i am so funny... A lot ppl laugh at me... 德秀怕打针，爱哭。 hahaha! At the end i dont let them inject my hand... And i remember the teacher call to my parent ask me go to the doctor place to have injection... I remember that time was weekend my mum, brother, sister and i going to the place to inject my hand... Bthat time i go lor... But i keep say i do not want... Around 1 we still cant find the clinic so my mum said dont find already and bring us go play... Like a sunway lagoon but that time entrances is free but when we ride 1 game we need to pay for a head of cost... I had been said my family not rich so that time my mum not enough money and she let 3 of us go play 2 games... I feel my mum love us so much!!! I love you mom! Muackssss.... Now i feel mum love three of of soo much... And i am sure all mother love her child so much because of we all in mother stomact for 9 months... Mother forever love thier son and daugther...

Anton Winoto

About myself.

About me... My name is Anton Winoto came from Indonesia. I born in Surabaya Indonesia... In 1990 years April 14th morning i was born in this world.. I am a guy... Simple guy.. I like to play around when i am small.. I in Indonesia frm 1990 until 1998.. After that in 1998 to 1999 Feb i at China study. The reason i was in China because of Indonesia had democration so my whole family move to China.. Until 1999 Febuary we whole family holiday to Malaysia and that time my grandmother over my parent to stay in Malaysia.. At that time we have nothing.. My dad told me we are poor.. We have only less than rm12k USD. That money bring use to Malaysia and its not enough for 5 of us... Because of last time do not have airasia so all airplan were high price... That time i was small about 9 years old... I come to Malaysia i was very happy but i miss my time in China... Because of i have likes live in Guang Zhou... There is very kampung but all the people there are friendly.. Doesnt matter is uncle or young man all are very kind to us... I remember i was study in Guang Zhou we start class at 8-4 between that we have a lunch about 45 mins... We can choose to eat in the school or we can go home eat onky come back to school... That time i and my sister in the same school.. We go to school together and go back together... We had a wonderfull time between me and my sister.. Some times we had lunch in the school and some times my sister and i go back to house eat for our dinner... Bcs mum cook for us and my sister warm eat and cook rice and we can eat together... Hehehe... I really miss the time when i was in China... The memory is there... I am really enjoy with my sister the most.. Yes we have argue with her and happy... I also have fun with my brother too... After we end school i and my brother go to play football with the security man and some of the school friends... I remember i am the youngest and i feel they not bully me they encourrage me and treat me as his friend... We in China only for 8 months... Time was pass so fast and we enjoy it... I remember when dinner i and my sis and some times with my brother we three go to pasar buy food for our dinner... I remember we always buy chicken drum stick... Hehehe... I remember we always go to train station buy the small orange.. I remember ¥1.00 for one bag we can eat it full... I am really feel that time was really good... And my parent working some times 7 days aweek. And mostly is 6 days a week.. I remember they work daily from morning until night... When we go school they already go to work... And they need by bus go to thier work place... Some times i go with them... On saturday i go see they work and they bring me there... I remember the boss treat my sister good and my sister want the colour hair and the boss gave to my sister for free.. Wow... I also feel happy that i have this family... Yes my parent work hard for our future... I remember every sunday we have to go church and i remember my mum is the one finding the church where is it... Bcs in China Christian very hard to find... So my mum heard from ppl got near the jing nian da xue... So frm my house to there need to take 45 mins to 1 hour... We need to use by bus and transit 2 bus.. When my parent have to work, we three brother and sister go by ourself... Its really fun and we three close with each other... Yes the church not big as indonesian... But we have find one of the chirts family... We have less than 15 ppls all of them are from Indonesian.. So we have meet our own contry and fellowship... We have great time in China... We have meet our own contry in China,.. We have great time with them too... Yes only once in a week we meet... But we really close with each other... When we want go to Malaysia and need to fen li... We have cry and sadness... Bcs like we are family and want to fen li... Yes we are family... But they still pray to us and bless us for a safety... I am really feel she bu de... I also cry when i fen li with them which mean leave China... I am crying... I feel sad...
Here is my China life...
Anton Winoto

Love

When i am weak you beside me give me streght...

When i am lonely you will be there for me...

When i am no mood you can make me happy because of your face...

When i am no idea you can give me idea to be active...

When i am tired your words make me stronger....

When i am lost you will lead me the way....

When i am hurt, you give me love...

You give me everything... I am the happiness...

But i already hurt you and you had been taken by someone i am really regret... Like i lost my daimond... :(

When i am lost you. i am nothing... I lost my mind, my streght, my confident, my way...

When i am lost you. i am weak, like i cant do anything...

I feel like i do all thing no faith and streght to handle all things...

She make my life happy... Yes we have a lot arguement but its makes me more love you.... But now i cant get back her heart... She had other ppl... I am really sad but i am still love you not bcs your outlook.. Its because of you know me and give me love. You make me to be a muture man...

I am really jealous with other ppl love... Why they can together until old.. Yes a lot ppl get the baby can get her or him... But i cant do this bcs i am respect her and i do not want bcs this make our love is only for playing and let ppl look down... I am a normal ppl... I am a honest ppl... Yes i might stupid ppl ask wat i will reply... Yes i might chong dong de nan ren...

Antonwinoto....

Sunday!

Today i feel happy.. Bcs its Sunday... I go with her... When i reach her house i saw her house want to sell... I am shock. If sell liao where she need to move? I am worry about this... When i wait her in outside... The owner rent the house and rent to her come back frm outside and i go down and ask her. Aunty is it the house wanted to sell? She said the owner want to sell and i said how for the ppl rent the room? The aunty said its okay, they have the contract until next year... I feel relax... I am thinking to buy that house and be the house owner... Yes that a lot of my memory... But i am worker and i might thinking can i buy that house? I try to call the ppl in charces. But they never pick up... Nvm i think if they want to sell around 600k i might can buy it... She come and in the car she silince and keep look at her phone... Yes i am feel happy but i feel that she dont like out with me... But i want her go church... I do not mind she not love me anymore... What can i do is i want her go to church and keep close to her religion... When reach at the place... I go in and listen... The passanger speak to us, we must take God in number one do not let other thing overcome Jesus... He said we cant love money more than Jesus... Bcs Jesus will lead us the good way for us... I learn this and i will remember forgive all to Jesus and love HIM in number one.... For me my church last time and now i go... Its the same thing.. Same thing to speak about God's words... Just we can listen and think to positive... After that we go for lunch... Yeah we have great time... We speak like a close friend... We talk alot and sharing... But i still jealous that she got him... To be honest i still love her... Hope she is happy... And he will give you the best.. But when i ask bout him... Bcs we talk until about him and i am wanted to knw about him and her... She told me that last week her bf came to kl and he stay at her room... In first time i am feel hurt and jealous... But i am telling to myself anton now she is your friend not your gf... Yes i am hurt... After we ate we go back to the car... We got spoken about the pass... I telling her that her friend got find me and ask about her and me.... Yes i am selfish... I am still make a wrong choice and hurt you for few months... Yes he come and raise you up... Maybe he is your 王子。i also got explain to her why i am selfish and why i am say about my goods to other ppl and also bad about her... Not say about bad about you... Is i am hurt bcs i am not give you a deeply love frm me... Yes i might xiao qi in money... This point i am not good in.... I also feel i am 自卑，我不是很好的人。让您伤心，担心和寂寞。i also told her in real life i can see... I and him... He is more better than me... I feel that i am useless like last time i said before... I am nothing.... When i said this out of sudden she cry and i am shock and feel want to hug her... But i am telling myself anton she not yours! She had other ppl! Yes, we are pass but i am still love you the heart... Yeah a lot ppl more pretty and cute... But i love you all! I feel you are pretty, cute, and the most importand is she knows me more than i know myself... And she have a true heart for loving someone... This why i love you... No one can be like you.... Your heart is really i want...

Antonwinoto.

i thought

in this pic whats the hot?? the black shirt lady... is look similarly to her.. first time i thought is her.. but i look longer is it her? and i said no la her hair is golden.. and this is black and the spec also different... but from beside look like her!!  i thought really her.. hahaha!!! really shock... i keep look at this young lady black shirt... its really look like her.. like last time her that black color hair.. hahahah!!! but now she became beautiful lady... sure a lot boys and men likes her... hope she can really happy with now and God bless you always...

Today i went to Melacca with Lam, we both went there just eat satay culup and go jungle street... hahaha... we had fun and eat a lot of foods... we eat 50 stick... and we use rm 39 for the satay and the drinks... first we want to go satay culup the famous and we look it need to Qiu for 1 hour so we change place but still eat satay... ^^ after that we went to jungle street... Jungle street is like a pasar malam... selling a lots of foods and the items... hehehe... at night we go back to kl... ^^

Anton winoto..

Question mark?

I asking myself... Why people married and divorce can reunion become a husband and wife? Is its thier love still inside? Or the love is big? I am waiting my miricale come over me.... I pray to get back to her... Yes you had been watch movie alone feel lonely... Yes i had been thrue this... I went to melaka alone... I am really sad bcs i am stress and no idea where to go and go go to melacca... First i am thinking of her.. How are you? But i dont dare to ask her... I hurt her heart very deep... But i still go melacca alone... I reach there i dont know where to go... I keep lost way... I remember if she beside me know she will lead me... I feel i am a kids meed people to direct... I just go in malacca for 1 hour then i go back home... I am really very sad why i can happen to me? Haiz..... I feel my love to you nor much and my care and my safety to you and the faith to you less... So thats you let me go easyly... Yes might my fault... I did not give you my big love to you make you love me deeply... Haiz.... I just feel that you are a great gf i had and i want it only..... I still waiting for the time... :)

恋爱

我觉得我不想谈恋爱。要谈一场不分手的恋爱！想和您永不分离。

When i sleep i dreaming

I dreaming that i with her... I thought its a real! We went to lot 10 and we go for a shopping... And i pushing trolly... And out of suddent she pushing with me and i feel happy....when we go see the couple bear shop... She looks one she feel want to buy it... She said this is i want and she said she wanted to give him... Not me... I feel so sad.. And the worker at ther said this model need to wait for a week.. She feel sad and me also sad... She sad she cant buy for him... Me sad bcs i thought she want get back to me... Then we go out frm the shop and shewhole my hands and i dont let whole bcs i said you have him... You dont scare later out of sudden he come find you? And i tell myself do not get into thirt... And she replied wont la... And she said you be my bf for 1 day.... I feel happy but not this i want and reject her... I tell her my heart... I told her yes you are hurt and do not want back to the feeling but you have to choose one of him.. She said she cant back to last time... But she keep thinking of me... And i tell her, i want you be my wife not a status of gf. I am serious if you dont believe lets us go respgister..... She keep thinking and thinking... I say let you think you wan me to be your husband? And i am serious to you not a joke... She quite and thinking.... When we use escalator she told me she wants me back... I feel so happy and we go for a shop.... And i feel xin fu!! So we went for a shop and after we finish walk i said where you wan to go? She said let go other shopping mall... I said okay and i will follow you.. Then i feel happy that i have her... But this is the dream!! When i woke up... Wah liao.... Its a dream... And i woke up ky heart feel more sad.... To be serious... I hurt... Why this is a dream only... And i said if a dream i hope tthis the dream i wont wake up forever! Even thought its in the dream... I am really sad... Haiz.... Nvm... I pray to God. god thank you for new day, thank you for let me in good health....

Feeling to you

I remember i had a dream that you come back frm jb and the bus accident and i was crying and worry about you. I tell myself what happen to you i will still beside you and accompany you until die.. For example that you lost your leg and i will be your leg, if you lost your eyes i will be your eyes... This wat i am promise..... At the end i know that you was go to heaven... I feel damn sad and i am crying until infront of your parent... And i tell them i will always love you forever i wont get other girl replace me... When i wake up my tears was drop and sms to you dear i love you forever.... I feel i cant lost you... Because i am a normal ppl and i feel i can let you happy... Yes i know now we are not but i can say is i will always wait you... No matter 1 month, 1 year, 10 years... I will wait you.... Yes you cant get back to pass as a boyfriend... I want you to be my wife! This is i am serious.... But for now i cant get you... So i will wait you eniledgam. ^^
Anton winoto simple person... ^^

Me

I wish that you in kl i can protect you... Yes just for 2 sems... I hope you let me to be your shoulder... After that you go jb you will with him... Yes i know you have bf i do not want disturb but i am still love you.. I wan to protect you in kl... Just send you to church every sunday.... Like this i already happy.... Seriously... Yes you told me you can get her or his humanility but you cant get his or her heart... But i can tell you my heart just only have you.... But now you have a bf i just can beside to help you and make sure you are happy and safety in kl... This is what i want to do and this make me happy already... Yes we cant go back like last time... But i can tell you that i will always wait you.... This is my promise to you.... And i promise now i wont disturb you and him... Let time pass and see whether i have chance? I just can wait... Wait... And wait.... Hope thats my heart person will know and forgive me everything and lets start new... I will always wait you~
Antonwinoto....

回忆

对我是很自私的人当我没有比你不会去jb，而我每次都会送您去tbs巴士。我也放弃我初步的工为了您。不关真样我是很爱你的。对我给您choice，我也不希望您和我分手。我也很狠我自己，而我也感觉到我不是很好的男人。我没有给你要的东西，让你牵就我。我真的很痛，我没次都在家很少出去。我觉得我没您讲的这么好。但我希望能有您背叛我下辈子。真的，没有你我真的不要别的女人。我王德秀不帅但我只有一颗小小的心给您。我也很后悔着几天让您多伤心，对我很自私。但我很想很想和您在一起。对现在您忙的您的功课，而我不能帮上什么忙。但我只能为您打包饭盒让您不饿。这是我的心对您。我不要求多，因为我也知道您有男友。我不应该打扰，但我不能控制自己。应该我太爱你。我真的很想带给您新福和安全感。我会永远的爱您一个人。不管您在天海海角我会爱您。永远不会忘记。我会一直等您到您原谅我。我相信爱是那么的原谅和相爱。

对我自己也想过，现在她的男友对她好又是搭背她。我也想放弃，但我不知道为什么我还那么的爱他。或许我的心只有她吧。我王德秀永远爱您！

王德秀上

Nice words

Sweet... I love these.... I hope i can find you... ^^

爱情

爱是什么？我昨天想了又想真爱是真样？爱一个人能让她一辈子爱你吗？爱受到伤害她还会等您吗？我觉得爱一个人很新福。爱一个人不管她或他这么样都会接受所有的事。我也看到一些的朋友们姐胡恩很恩爱，不管有钱货平穷。他们重拾要对方的支持和信心。不管对方怎样不能两人一起吵架。我很羡慕人们的爱情这么的恩爱。说为的我们要看自己才能给另一半新福
王德秀上。

Instalmag

I read ppl msg... In instalmag... I saw a girl married with a guy... And they have one daughter and they happy... They trust each other and believe and some more deeply....
She wrote these : LOVE isn't all about flirting, hugs,kisses, abd sex. LOVE is about having the ability to take all those things away and still having feeling for that person. I agree with this! Its make a marry success.... ^^ feel like i going to marry... Hahaha!!! Funny eh me...
Okay, lets sleep....
Nights... Good night anton....
Antonwinoto

End the world

This morning, we have company meeting. At the start the meeting out of suddent my tears come out.... Yes i stil cant take it to me... I blame myself whats wrong? Yes i think a whole nights and chat with one of her friend.... Yeah i might selfish... I that night think a lot and think why i could do this? Now i lost her and friends.... Is it that i want? Haiz.... I am very 冲动的人。yes i got hurt by saying... So sorry... Awhile we meeting i suddently cry out... I dont know what happen.... Yes i might miss her... But when meeting start i am silince and talk about purchasing... We have argue between it... I keep silince and keep thinking of her... I crying... I went out for a toilet... I keep say to myself stop crying anton... Its over.... She had him.... I no value in her heart.... I just dont knw why i keep crying.... I whipp all my tears and i come in the office back for meeting... But i also dont knw why i keep drop my tears and i turn to back take tissue.... Maybe they saw it... But i do not want them to know.... So i keep myself strong... Do not cry... But i tell myself no her still have others.... But go thrue purchasing... They are arguing and i feel more sad and crying... My family member also broken... I say in my heart... Dear lord why can happpen it to me? Why you give me this hurt..... I am complaining i in this world for wat? I feel want to die and all thing no need to worry about... End of the meeting one of the purchasing staf which my brother will leave the company amd i dont know i feel hurt.... Haiz.... I also dont know why all these thing can come in time and make me very sad....haiz.. Nvm ba... I want to tell my bos if the purchasing no one i willing to take the possition go to china... I want to get new life.... I cant take this all... I do not want care about her any more and my family too... I am already sad and give up... I will happy with my own life... Be happy anton and later need to have meeting with transport gm... Jia you anton!
Anton, Jesus love you.... ^^ muacksss....
Anton winotot

Here i am want to say sorry...

I feel so sorry to say about last night, i am here to oppology to you that i said not good to you and i am here to wish you happy with whatever who you with..... I wish now u and ivan happy... I wont disturb you and him.... Jesus love you and him....
Anton

I am really very sad...

This is what i am sad and tdy i have seen her.... I am very disappointed to her... What she wrote in here just for a few days she get a new relationship... Yeah cant say is her fault bcs of me i hurt her.... She love me a lots and a lot memory.... But one of the sentence make us forever cant get back.... Haiz..... Why should this happen leh? I prefer not to be your bf  and i get hurt the pain until now... Is 10 months! But she get new bf! For me its so fast she can have a partner! Yes i am really hurt and pain! My ex get new bf! Why make this happen? I am really want to get back and she keep hurt me with her qi hua! Yes i told her i HATE IVAN GOH! I will remember his name and hate him! He can change my position within few months! Its amazinng guy! Or maybe she really get easy into new love? From this lesson i feel in this world no true love! I am the first gf that i had for 3years plus and just for few months know him and together! This is what the fuck you want!!! I already do what you still cant give me? You said you wan malaysian guy and jb and thats its? Its a bullshit! Like this i can change for you but you said imposible that get back to me! This really hurt for me... I get know a lot thing is bcs her.... I know iphone... I know blogs... I know placeses.... Just bcs of ivan my life is gone and she has ivan and happy! I am really dont knw what i should do? Bless them?.. Broke them? Or just leave? Haiz.... I feel this blog just let her see or maybe my brother will see this ba.... I feel i wan to stop this blogs and do whatever i want and keep my feeling in my heart bah.... I am really hurt of the words of LOVE! And the most of the feeling is gone! Cant sleep, cant work, cant eat, cant do well... And more... Its to scary to be love! I am fucking serious i want to tell the whole world that love not true!!! Only money can make it true!!!!
Anton winoto

Repost i hope tou will read this...frm my heart

第一天见到您的时候，我觉的你是我的天使。我觉得你是很特别的女人。第二次我们见面，我们在电梯里。我觉的你在看我，但我心里面说不可能啦，我这么肥又不帅。回家的时候，我感到很累。晚上得时后，我一打开facebook有新的人加我。我一看是她！我感到开心。不知道为什么对她有特别的感觉。然后我们在哪聊天，不知不觉的我们当朋友。当我第一次约她去喝。我干儿很开心，我们在maｍak喝。不知不觉的我们很有话题呢。呵呵呵。当我们认识两个多礼拜我决定要去问她到底喜欢我吗？长话短说，我们在一起。我们的第一次约会是在sunwaypyramid吃台湾小吃。然后我们一起去找个像做个纪念，当我们要拍我们不懂这么拍而我架架的要亲她的指示，但她以为我要吻她呢。哈哈哈哈！。那时我很开心的不得了。我们很恩爱。而这是我真的找到我的真爱。她很可爱又很白。我觉得很开心。我们第一次亲是在1utaｍa。我不敢直接的吻，而我去问她能不能吻你。哈哈哈我真是怕道。。
我们一起的日字没那么的长但我觉得很开心。我会得到这么美的女友。我还记得我们很多苦的日子，当你还没忘记您前男友，我觉的我没用。不能让你的到我的心。我也努力让你开心。日子过了她能把他忘了而只有我的心在她心里面。
有一天她突然和我说他对不起我，她一边说一边哭。那时我拥抱他和给他我得见旁。他说我不是好女友。长话短说，我和她说那是以前。我不介意您的过去。现在的您我喜欢。我不管以前你是这样的。
我很伤害她的心。因为我做对不起她的事，我怕她离我而去。我真的很怕。但我下定决心要和她唐白。因为两人在一起一定要讲实话和没有秘密。
我们真的度过很多的风风雨雨我们一起度过。一起读书一起做工。我真的把你当我的老婆。但我做了不对的路和伤害了你的心。haiz。如果能重来我不会在次的伤害你。我现在不想你和别的男人。但我没有那个权利住址您。haiz，我觉的我整个人懂！对很多人说你爱的人不和你在一起没关系只要她新福就好。我真的放不下她。您真的心福吗？我想您应该很开心和您爱人。我真的不想伤害你，我也很懂。我都不敢对别的女人爱。因为我的心只有您！
我爱你！我也希望你得到你新福。如不是我是你的心福那我放手吧。我真的很后悔。
我也知道我不是好人，没有什么文平。而您是大学生，我不赔她吧。现在你有背叛和又有学文。好吧！加油！我永远的爱你！
王德秀上。

Early in the morning feeli

I feel that i am fail in my previos relationship.... And i do not dare to get into new relationship... I do not want get hurt and hurt ppl too... I just feel that i am weak when i do not with you..... I feel not like last time have the power of stregth to do all my thing... I not help house clean, lazy to wash own car and my room was messy... Is it LOVE is a big change? Make someone to have stregth to do all this? I feel its yes if you fall in love with someone how tired you are and when you meet him or her you will full energy... ^^ i also dont know when can i come back to my old anton to be strong do not be lazy ne? Just feel that i am a fool why i let her go? Yeah its good to let her go... Now she became more muture and pretty than last time.... She is a better person....^^ good to see her muture and i am the one still in the old house do not see the outside world.... What am i doing? Like one of my friend his's gf broke up with him and they still friend can go out eat and find each other but my friend he found a new gf which is 2 months later. He change a lot... He more knw friends and find the romantic places... Is it this the love can make you more better?? I feel i cant... Bcs i am not a simple or simply person.... Yes i had speak we break up but i am just want you.... The only you.... I dont dare to get back with you until now we had meet for the first time.... I look u different and i feel that you like a eagle flying in the sky and me like stil in the egg havent come out.... Hahaha..... Okay la... Say until here i need to do my work...

Anton winoto

My Job

Hello, its me... i just back from work and had my bathe....
today i am really tired because of the work... especially when staff MC i need to go do by myself... today come 1 container and we 3 person open 1 container within 3 hours.. and i still sick and i keep myself to do it faster... finally finish open the container and i go back to my office and i have my drink... after that i need to check up my quantity of the item... so i go check and re-put nicely to the racking... around 7 PM. i  and my staff doing work out of sudden the warehouse light switch on and off. i shout and said hello anyone there?? and no one replied me.. and few second the other light switch on and off automatically... i call my staff to follow me go and see... to be honest, i am scare at that time... but i just pray in my heart for a save.. reach there i look no one is there and i see the switch okay no problem... i just said thanks God... my mum also follow behind me and my dad too...

对不起

我感觉到以前我对你老实要求这和哪，但你的要求我并没有那么的放在心。真的谢谢您。我觉得我不是和你。我觉得自己很自私，不顾您的感受。我王德秀对不起您。我还记得那是您叫我带落石我每次忘记带，哈哈哈。着是我的缺点。对不起。
^_^

Now i know

I remember why last time my brother keep sleeping... I think i have get same feeling with him... Broken heart.... Its really hurt.... When you sleep u wont think about it... And want keep sleep forever... I just nw at office i am really tired and feel unhappy then i go to my office just lying on the floor and sleep... I sleep until 1 hour and my dad wake me up and i keep feeling do not want to wale up... When i woke up i am really feel empty... Like u in the mountain a lot of tree and no one it there... I keep silince dont knw why i do not feel wan to talk... My dad keep saying about me and i just silince and do not want to talk... Am i really change? Am i really happy with this? Am i really gila? Haiz.... How gone thru this? I am really get the pain very deep... Now i am 23 years old... I seriously get very deeply hurt by this relationship... Pass time i hurt bcs of i fail my subject, cant go out with friends, cant buy my games. Now i am really pain for few months.... But this month really really very very serious to me.... I like crying everyday until my yan lei mei le... What i am really want ne? A partner to keep me happy? A future wife? Haiz.... I also want get back my strong anton! Now my mum get sick and i cant feel down and let them worry about me.... Yeah i not cry infront of them... But i might know that i have a problem with mag.... My mum ask me hw was her? I said she was good... My mum asked me is it you want get back with her? I silence and think should i tell my mum she already had bf? At the end i just told my mum that she already had a partner and her bf in jb... When i said this i feel hurt... Dont know why? Is it i am still love her? Or jealous?
I hope that i can close my eyes and do not open back my eyes until the hurt hilang... Or Jesus bring me to your heaven let me see there and the hell how its look likes? Now out of sudden, i feel that human in the world just few years after we die we just have two way to go which is heaven or hell. If we are follow by Jesus, HE will lead us to the true of the way to the Heaven! If we do not listen and obey HIM and follow the world we will get the punishment! Which want we want to choose? After we have leave the world we will forget who is your wife husband child and friends! So lets praise to the Lord to the King of King name JESUS!!!

Now i am feeling better... I just feel to let go and give her a bless and pray her to get happiness and wanted to let her must keep going to church and do not leave our God name JESUS!

Antonwinoto brother!

Change

I will let go... And change myself.... What i need to improve? I want to sleep early and do seriously in every single job... Be healthy... Keep fit! Wow! Be a better anton! Do dont be jealous and 妒嫉。what i have i need to thank God... Everything is from God... I am rich or poor, handsome or ugly, smart or weak, healhty or sick is all thanks God... :) God will give me a good way for my future and my everything... :)

爱情

爱情是什么？爱一个人只是说说？说我爱你？陈诺？或保护？说我爱你只是暂时罢了，因为当我们看到对方的有点。
爱情时佛会永久吗？我觉的爱情不知事两人的是情。是三角的，男友，女友和上帝。这才会永久的。
我想了很久，我真的要放下。我不能给撒旦利用我让我想以前的回忆！上帝请您进入我的生命教导我。
王德秀。

我的心真的很痛

我发现他真的爱另一个人了。她都骗我，他的他来了。我看到很心痛！为设么哪？难道我还爱他？或妒嫉？或不甘愿哪？我真的很傻。都很久了，他也应该有喜欢的人了吧。我是还是想不通为设么会这样对我呢？难道我对你不好？或你没爱过我？或对我没感觉？真的这次我伤到很痛。算了吧德秀女人要的是安全感和爱他多的。女人不会而你去放弃别的人。我还是去新的生活吧。会过得比较好和快乐，不要傻傻的真爱一个人。别浪非金和真情在女人身上！
我还是不爽如他真的比我跟好么？他也不是合您一样宗教！或他比我有钱？
Haiz... I feel that really fool by her... I also dont know what happen right now? Is it nw she repect him and not sms to me when he with her? Then last time when u with me u keep sms with him! I feel that u really change and i do not know you.... And from here i can say that you really play me? Use me? Am i said correct or wrong ne? Haiz..... I just feel like i am a foolish man in the world... Haiz.... Really want know about this only i can over this relation!
Can i have choice to forget the hurt? I am really hurt... I am seriously,... I wan feeling that i want to die.... No mood to sleep, no mood to wake up.... All like no one in the world... Who can revive me? Who can bring me to the happiness world? I hope that i do not have my pass relationship! I am really get hurt very deeply!!! What should i do?? Who can tell me?

Antonwinoto!

Love

I open the facebook and i saw one relationship get from her boyfriend a buck of rose.. she wrote: 

1. 这真是让我又气又觉得窝心感动的礼物~
   干嘛又浪费钱啊︶︿︶
   别人有不代表我一定也要有嘛~真是猪头一个︶︿︶
   好啦，知道你疼我，爱你啦(^_^)

   This really makes me feel nice gift ~ why waste money, ︶ ^ ︶ others does not mean I have to have a ︶ ^ ︶ ~ pig well, know that you love me, loving you (^ _ ^)

   
   

   this girl really have his heart and the love... she can care about his money... its really good girlfriend... ^^ i love this... ^^ hope they can happy forever...

   bcs i feel they both can 为了对方着想。

Feel lonely and like alone...

After i broke up with her i feel sad for a few months i keep saying to myself to let me busy with work but i cant forget what i have with her.... This is really meaning full and hardly to forget.... Can say this is my first love to me... All that i have done is with her... Cook for me care me, help me in studies... And a lot more... I am quite missing that time so,etimes i feel nothing to do i wanted to find someone to accompany me... Last time heah i have a full time bcs i had her... Now no more... Now she always keep refuse to meet with me... Maybe she dont wan to get hurt by me gua? Or maybe she try to hide me? Or she want to try get love with her bf ? Haiz.... She real a good girl but she just a bit think too much.... Haiz.... Pass its pass... Really cant get back to the pass... Now i might to think is it he last time got love her so dont dare to say out... After she broke up with me, he have her... Haiz.... I also dont know... Is it you very easy to give up on our 36 months and 9days? If yes then i am really really sad... And i think i am not importand to you... Just for 5 months he can with you... Which mean his love to you for 5 months can change with our relationship frm sadness to happiness 36months and 9 days just replace him? Haiz.... Or she really not love me?? Haiz..... :'( i am really dont believe in love to women... Its too scary for me to think about this... Nw i want to get her... I want to take her frm him... But she likes obey him or scare to hurt him... Just think you love who more? Do not lost your chances to be with your lover back! Haiz.... Maybe he always sms to you and always whasapp you until get closer to you and become likes.... Haiz.... Just this can create your love to him.... Haiz.... I also feel very sad... Yes i am not a handsome man and smart man but i am the only one in the world and i know whats is love! Yeah i got betray you one times... But i am honestly to let you know it... And you accept me and forgive me... I am really more love you bcs of this i promise myself to let you happy.... But at the end gone.... Its really sad for me.... Its hurt.... You cant wait me or chase me back.... Haiz.... 世界上有三种爱。第一是无缘有份，第二有缘有份，第三无缘无份。应该我们是第几个哪'？
我真的很寂寞。难道我要去认识别的人吗？我不敢去认识女人了。
王德秀上。

Time

Time will pass fast... Now my heart is just fill of money! Find money! Got money all its mine! Can do what ever i want! I can buy big house big car many girls! And so on! Wow!!! Now i do not want dream on only just mission to aim and reach that lvl lets bring out to the person who look down with me and i will let them look down back on u! Hahaha!!!!!
Feel happy! :) keep it on anton!

Friday

Fridayits Friday!! Hehehe... Today come back for work.. Still not feeling well but need force myself to work... Early in the morning go to office... Feel tired and wan sleep... But i need to do my job well... Slow doesnt matter do not do wrong can de... I feel i am different with last time... TodAy came to work i do sirim with my staff i keep quite and do my job... Until they talk i reply only.... I feel i no topic to talk until got related to work only i go talk v them....
I feel it is i am not value to you? I am really dont knw what i am doing now.... I feel love isomeone very hard... Can get person but cant have her heart its useless... Haizzzz.... I feel wan to give up? Or still continue ne? I am really cant be myself... Who can drive me?

Question mark?

Until today i made 319 already... Keep it up... And do not give up....tdy is a home stay day... I sleept until sien.... Just came back frm take away dinner for her... I feel she angry to me lor... She dont want but i keep forcing her... But i am really care about you... Just take away for her food i need to jam in the road for 1 hour... For me its worth! Maybe i not that romantic person like in fb youtube... But i can say i am really 100% love you.. Yeah maybe my outlook fat but i have a true heart... :)
你真的对我这么绝情吗？我是很硬的人但我关心你。
王德秀上

Headache

Today was headache about work... One by one all the worker wanted to leave... One say next month want go back.. Other one next year january my last month.... All worker train by me all well done all want to go... Wtf!!! I wanted to get other position to go out sales for this end of year but i heart it i damn no mood and feel how come all good and now want stop work? Do i do wrong? Got 2 nepal staff do with me income low... Yeah i knw.. Their agent eat them more... But i meed belanja them eat and drinks! And nw? All wanted to go bcs of the reason of salary not enough.... They wanted add rm 220, wtf! They told my other staff said i say if u all do nicely i will give extra rm 50-100 but end of month the bos not give? I told them how many days u mc in a month? They said non! I said u this month already mc 3 days and last month 1 days,... And you still do a lot mistake! Still blame me that i not give bonus! Haiz.... All about money!!! The worker eyes only got $$$... No value of the person.... I told them when ur salary is rm 1k give us ur value of 1.2k so the boss see nice and will add extra bonus ma.... Dont think u get rm 1k and do 800 sure the bos dont like de ma.... Haiyo.... Other worker also... Want stop work and theexcuse sure not enough of the salary, haiz... Lazy talk already lah.... Give all to God....
Now i want go back home de... Feel tired and sick...today my nose bleeding.... Haiz.....
Antonwinoto

Sick and busy working...

On Monday, i was sick... Because of her i am sick... But for me its worth it... I do not wan her to get sick... So i prefer myself get into sick... :) btw thanks God that now i am really feel better... And on that day which is Monday i not go to work... I whole day sleep in my bed... Wake up just eat my lunch and do my little thing for her around 2 hours then get back to sleep....

The next day which is Tuesday, i go for work... I feel quite tired but i force myself to wake up and go to work... Today i work it as a normal.. Just lunch i oversleep until 2 pm.. My dad keep asking me, do you eat your medical? I am like so xinfu he keep remind me and my dad not allow me go out for work.. But i still went out do my work... Bcs i can handle it and inthe afternoon have a container need to open it.. So i just open it with my staff... 4 ppl... Around 6 i whatsapps to her and i asking her for dinner.. At first she reject me said dont want... Then i reply k k... Not longer she said she want eat at rahmat! I am so happy and i said okay but after 8 i only cam go off.. She reply okay de but hopefully still got dadar jagung and the ikan keli... Hehehe.... So i keep rushing my worker to do faster... Finish open the container, i rushing to fetch her... I am feel happy to meet her... :) we eat together and have a great day... :) remember for the disney show 17 OCT o....
Okay i write ipuntil here.. I need to rest and go sleep... Good nights... And God bless you...

Antonwinoto

Monday

Good morning,
Today i not feeling well. I sleep whole nights and now still feel want to sleep... My whole feeling like want to die... The pain of sick its not good.... But its okay... I will get soon... 我刚才在想如果我日子不多回这么做？我相对她说要好好地过要新福！而我不会和他说我的病别让她知道。我不要因为我的日子不多所以和我勉强的在一起。
我很难搜，我去睡觉。
王德秀上

To my Lover

we had a lot of sadness and happiness story!! this CD really make me strong and more love in you My Dear!!! i am really keep this and i am really want to be in your side always and this is what i want to have it (YOU)
this is my memory and this is my lover, i do not care now we are what i just want to say that i am always love you! no one will replace u in my heart. i am really love u so much!! if i cant get you back that i was a big mistake because of you are the great girlfriend i had and you is my happiness in my life...  No you i have nothing.. to be honest... i do not have friends but i have you is my color of my life... i am really love you!! last time now and future! FOREVER!

AntonWinoto.

Sunday

今天星期日，一早起身九点多了然后我就打给她。我打给他的时候可以看看睡醒，我就跟他说着我们一起去教会吧。她说我不要去我很累你自己去吧。我还是说一个礼拜只有一次一定要去教堂。而勉强的他也答应我去教会。教堂后我们就去吉隆坡。她陪我去买哥哥和大嫂的生日礼物。在车里面不说话等我找个题目看看聊聊。
长话短说，我们已经买了礼物。我们要回家时外面下的很大雨所以我们不能回车。说以我们在里面走走。一小时后雨也小了很多但我感觉她要回家，我就叫她在里面等而我去拿车。她说要就一起去，但我不给她和我去因为我怕她生病没人照顾她。我生病没什么的。
在车里面我们说了很多话。但我要说的我对你的爱不是以前的或想起以前的我们！我感觉到我真的爱你到老合我心里的爱只是有你没有其他人。我也希望你能和我在一起，但你觉得我不是您的白马王子哪希望你能找到您的。我也希望您开心和快乐！爱一个人不一定拥有她，最重要的是你爱的人找到自己的心福！但您觉得我是我希望你能回来。不怕伤害他！爱是双方的！不是牵就的！我希望在24日11月我们一起。
王德秀上

Saturday

7/9/2013

一大早我和她吵了大架，我也说了很不好听的话。我感儿伤心和后悔。haiz，我就下定觉心散她的号码。到了晚上我和妈妈和大嫂去吃时。突然我受到whatsapps而我看是她发给我的。当时我读了她发的whatsapps我不能发因为我的电话3G和apps有问题。我一到家用妈妈的iPhone。长话短说我们一起去喝酒。在那个晚上她说我恨你，我感儿觉得她酒吧。但她说我没酒。然后她说我们还可以做好友。我笑了一下，和好奇的问她。为设么你说你恨我但是还可以做好友？我那天晚上真的很伤但是还挺开心的。不管见面5秒也开心。

我还记得星期五晚上我和queeny去snowflake我也大包给她。只见面不到一分钟我也挺开心。这是我对你的爱。这是真的爱吗？或是想起以前？我能在这里说我是爱你的不是怀念以前的事。我希望你也一样的爱我不是只想起以前的开心。这不是爱。爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈。爱是不嫉妒，不自夸，不张狂； 不作失礼的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易动怒，不计较人的过犯； 不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理。 爱是凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。

新的一天

早上我出门的时候我看到新娘的车子。我感觉到他们很幸福因为在生命中最幸福的就是结婚的时候。我也在心里面想我祝福他们了永远的快乐。我也在想借此轮到我的婚姻哪？我看是很久吧我这么年轻。可是现在我没有新的目标还是他吧。
王德秀上

伤心

突然我心很痛不知道为设么？这么办？
我真的很怕。

对你

每次一开上眼就会想起你的笑脸，
每天总会发现自己反复不停的想你，
总会忍不住的分心去寻找妳的瑽跡，
甚至有点不知所措，
很想能呆在身边，
做我最后的爱人，
因为隻有妳一人能让我心动，
如果可以，请告诉我还未心有所屬，
无论如何，我都将诚实的面对。

Morning... :)

Good Morning to all,

Today is a Friday! Early in the morning wake by my mum. I slept with mum yesterday night. This morning my mum asked me anton what you dream last night? And i said i not dreaming. She replied when you sleept, you saying 吃饱了吗？ i no idea what i said last night. But when i open my eyes i thinking of HER... And i hope that she sms me morning darling... :) i think i dream on... That was last time... Now she had a new life new partner... I feel too sad lor... But i am saying with myself that dont worry anton you will get her back and let her happy... Just need a times and my sincerly heart that i am really love her... I hope that she will happy lor... Do not because of he cares you and give you a support you together with him eniledgam(you guesse)... I just want to say here, you hurt a person that not you love! But you do not force yourself to love a person not you love... Now what you do do not affraight of anyone feel... Just be yourself and 相爱是两人的事情！不管别人真么想，要对自己的为来想。我真希望我会被妳到老。

Anton winoto.

Tonight i go dinner with her, i feel very happy and think that we have a great time together and sharing. When i reach at her house she not look at me.. Sad lor... After she in my car, she keep look at her mobile phone and not talk to me until i start talk to her. When i ask and she reply... :,( sad but its okay bcs i still having dinner with her.. We went to eat bubur! Yay!! We reach there and we order.. :) when the food is serve and her msg suddenly ring up and i look at her phone, its Him! He whatsapp her call dear.. I feel very sad i am silince around 3 mins... But i tell myself anton do not think too much just act like nothing and keep eat our dinner.. Our dinner have done and i send her back home. I asked her do you have something to ask me? She replied no. Wah its sad lor.. After i send her back home i went to sunway pyramid and get my things and i bought something for her... But dont dare to give her lor.... I also got do one thing for her but i cant wrote here.. Hehehe... If i get it i will share in here.. :)
Tonigh i also ask her about them.. But i feel that i cant give her the happyness.. Bcs i scare she cant forget him(now). I also jealous that they both already kiss... I very sad lor.... Really jealous... I do not have faith to let her happy when she back with me. Because i do not have friends do not rich.. I just scare that she will xin gu follow me... But i will try my best to get her back lor...
My heart really hen luan...
I feel she likes him but not love him lar... I feel she still care about me but she told me that she cant face me bcs of the wall...
I wrote until here i need to do my staff..

Your faithfully,
Anton Winoto.

今天早晨的天气很好很冷有下很大的雨。每天七点我的闹钟回响然后我会去洗澡去上班。但今天我觉得好累和下雨让我觉得想睡多一点。今天一起床我想到我的工人会不会来上班。一到公司两个人没来，我就会忙。因为有货柜40＂要开，我还是自己下手去开。也不是我一个人，还好有另一个人。所以我们两人一起开。我觉得也很好。因为能看搜到累的感觉，我们用了四个小时开。我多希望她能给我的鼓励。入到如今，我们只是朋友，但我有信心和妳在一起。我希望您健康和加油在您的学业上。我希望能给妳拥抱让您有安全感和温暖和力量。我会一直在妳身边保护您和不让妳受伤。我会一直等妳和爱妳。
王德秀上。

今天工作真的很忙。因为我下手帮忙，今天真的好累。但当和她发信息我觉得很快乐，好像她给我力量。^_^
星期一我用两小时做24颗。
昨晚用了一小时做24颗。
做的比较快。^_^
我先忙。

Finally

Finally i get back my blog. Really very long time no write my blogs. By the way i have gone thrue a lot of sadness in this year. I feel i am useless person, no colorful, lonely and emo! Maybe because i had done wrong thing? Leave her? Hurt her too deep ba.. Yeah i am hurt her but its a qi hua ma.. She knows me 3 years she should know what i mean ma... But i just relieze that she take it serious and get hurt deeply of my words. I in here say sorry to you Magdeline. I really hope to protect you love you care you and give my jian pang to you!
Until now i dont know why she got a bf? Is it want to qi wo ma? Can you tell me?
I believe that you still love me and you need time to settle out with him. Never mind i give you time but i really hope this year november 24 i can chase her and she acct me.. Do you know why 24 nov? Bcs its is a big day for me and her...

I wrote the blog until here bcs i am really tired do things and tmr need to go work de... Good nights all.